just stuff

2008-12-02T06:36:00.000-08:00

OMG ahhahahah. i'm finally updating after a long long while. while previous posts reflect the stress and pressures of jc life, this post will be completely different. cos yes, i am done. DONE with my A levels (well about half a month ago, time really seems to fly). DONE with uniformed education, whether that makes sense or not.

so now i am terribly free! and i'm so glad i finally get to unleash the nocturnal creature buried in me for so long, for now i am enjoying long nights and only awaking when the sky is at least overhead. yes. this is my natural lifestyle. i think i operate on a different timezone. but the night beckons. alas my nights are not spent partying or doing anything cool like that, instead they are spent huddled in front of a laptop/book. ah, but that is ideal.

alright. i ought to be in thailand the past few days but due to the protests at the thai airport, all flights are cancelled. thank goodness the smtown concert is postponed otherwise i will be fuming mad in singapore while the concert proceeds in thailand. nvm. i will go when the concert is on. yup.

prom is in a few days. hmm.

2008-08-11T08:41:00.000-07:00

well well well. so many things have happened.

FIRST THINGS FIRST, i am finally 18! whether that is a good thing or not remains to be seen. i have always envisioned eighteen as the "epitome-of-cool" age, where things will be fine and dandy, where i'll be partying away and having lotsa fun, wandering about various places, having the time of my life. but sadly, i now find myself mugging my life away. AHAHAH. but still, i am of the grand old age of EIGHTEEN now, officially from the 2nd of august. i feel old. time is slipping away fast. i must do a lot of things, things that can be done only when u have the excuse of youth and immaturity. and FAST.

then we have our national day. didn't watch the parade this year so i don't have much idea. refused to watch the tv broadcast too. but yes. wishing the nation a happy 43rd birthday! and may you always be prosperous and peaceful and may people here lead happy lives!

of course, we have the most important event this year, and that is none other than the BEIJING OLYMPICS 2008! the opening ceremony is the most amazing spectacle i have ever seen (not that i've seen a lot of course). china really pulled all stops, making everything so absolutely elaborate and stunning and grand and even more. AMAZINGGGG. the performances. the calligraphy piece OMG OMG OMG. the globe part, JAW DROPPING... and the best part, the lighting of the torch... first the relay and then Chinese athlete Li Ning ran suspended in mid air around the whole stadium carrying the torch, then finally reaching the gigantic torch and lighting it. too spectacular.

sad to say, i havent really followed the games closely since the opening ceremony. HAHA. congrats to Tao Li, omg she's amazing!

2008-07-31T09:20:00.001-07:00

suddenly felt like updating again. i thought my blog hadn't been touched for a while but i was quite surprised i posted about 2 weeks ago! ahaha.

anyway i think quite a lot of things have happened of late. right now we're mugging. i haven't really intensified yet but i will soon.

and prom stuff have to be settled soon. it's barely august and already they want the money in... prom's gonna be at ritz carlton, and yup, it is rather ex at 98 bucks. and i hope a large proportion of the class go, since that's largely what prom is about right? camwhoring with the peeps. =)

and i can't believe i'm so crazy. seriously i should get my brain checked, but yeah, thailand and the sm town concert beckons me. like dongbangshinki and superjunior! like OMG. ahaha.

i think this is the time when all of us feel more weird.. somehow i feel that there are so many things i have to take care of like all the stupid personal statements, uni apps (soon), prelims and the A levels, and all of a sudden i'm so unsure of where i shld be going, where i'm headed. of course the prospect of going overseas to study beckons me greatly, so invitingly, almost as if it's a carrot on a string (just for the tiny lil fact that i don't like carrots hahaha). i can feel it in my veins. and i want to go... i want to get away from here (not that i don't like it here) but i want to go out and explore the world. cliche and stupid i know, but this place is too small and microscopic and too familiar, i wanna just get away and go to some strange foreign land where i'll feel like an outsider looking in and visiting. i want to experience new things. i know this is terribly idealistic and is probably not going to happen and i'm probably too romantic and dreamy for my own good. then i start getting worried once again, cos there's no way the good universities in the world will accept me, when there are so many out there with better results and portfolios. and my dream is about to get crushed...

i want to be a traveller, a voyager, a nomad, a liu lang ze. but i don't think i have the courage to. but i can imagine though.

BACK TO EARTH.

2008-07-12T06:00:00.000-07:00

omg it's over i can't believe it.. over in a flash. the past four days seemed so frantically fast to me, like part of something too good, and good things always slip by in seconds... gosh i know i will miss everything so so much, even as i couldn't stand some of the trainings, even as i was down or sad sometimes. the team mates especially, it's probably different now that we are gonna be meeting more in the reading room than meeting at macritchie (which is probably our favourite reservoir in the world.) post comps is over, we've had a fantastically good time at outback steakhouse and at the marina mandarin hotel (THANK YOU HAOXIA!) playing and camwhoring and for some, being drunk (haha)...
and now i guess life is probably back to normal, except for the lack of training.

love u hcanoe 0708.

2008-05-04T07:45:00.000-07:00

had SATs yesterday. it was quite a new and fun experience. there were soo many people at cjc where i took the test, it was rather amazing because there were so many types.. like from all walks of life (exaggerating here ahaha). anyway i dunno what time the test was supposed to start, but we all had to be there at 745. we waited for a good loong time before the test actually started at 9 plus. like, wth. after that it was just four hours of intensive thinking and doing the test. i found the test surprisingly manageable, considering i did my first practice at 10 plus pm the friday night before. the test was so fun, basically cos after doing like the fifth passage based thing, you're kinda tickled. the test was not hard, but i felt just a teensy bit pressed for time. anyway, now i can't wait for the results!

after that, we had training! so sweet right. SATs ended at a freaking late time of 1.30 of so i had less than hr to go home and then to macr. during that limited time, i somehow managed to grab some muesli bar and a bun and that kinda staved off the hunger for a while.

hx is leaving for (isit south africa?) some far flung place yet again! leaving us to fend for ourselves again. nah i kid, this time it's only for a few weeks.

rawr nationals....

i'll try to upload the stj pics asap. no guarantee though. hahaha

2008-04-20T06:32:00.000-07:00

i just bought meself a pair of PURPLE running shoes!!

when i see the colour purple (not the book haha) my mood always lightens and i will feel happy and contented for a few moments.

i think i'm crazy sometimes. HAHAHA.

note to self: MUST WATCH MOVIE.

2008-04-17T08:47:00.000-07:00

some days i feel like killing and tearing things and swearing nonstop and today is one of them. the bloody hw is killing me. and i feel like killing it. and everything sucks now. and the stupid bloody sore throat and stuffed nose is not at all helping.

gnd.

2008-04-08T08:47:00.000-07:00

hmm i'm updating with astounding regularity these days!

i have no idea what to write about but just felt like writing a crappy post. right now i feel so entirely useless and unmotivated, which is the usual. i totally think i suck, i can't bring myself to do more work than i am supposed to. and i mean the barest of minimums.

AHH napfa 2.4km tmr. i hate 2.4 cos it's the only thing that prevents me from getting a perfect 30 for napfa test. yes i know i run very slowly. but i have managed to sub 14 before, so i'm hoping i can manage that feat once again. (WAHAHAHA, i'm slow, as i already said) the other item that jeopardises the 30 score is sit and reach. what ppl always say about girls being more flexible is false. i can't bloody touch my toes when bending down with legs straight!

alrighty, i better get back to my gp, which is terrible right now cos i really cannot think of anything to write. and maybe if i'm in the mood, attempt a qn or two for h3 chem.

2008-04-04T08:15:00.000-07:00

i feel so frickin' dumb.

this is one of the first times i feel so utterly confused and reluctant.. reluctant to drop AND reluctant to continue h3. i REALLY DUNNO. at first i was so getting ready to enjoy my new-found freedom, then i got myself swayed too easily into attending the h3 lecture, after which i went to speak with my teacher about h3 and stuff. and apparently she decided to give me another chance!! which is great. but i cancelled the h3 subject registration earlier in the morning, so now i have to go find some teacher again and get them to 'reinstate' the subject.

coming back to the point, i am really still in a dilemma, although everyone encourages me to continue. and i guess i should, since i've already caused enough trouble by quitting and un-quitting h3 (haha) and they would probably kill me if i were to say i want to drop it and then decide not to drop it.. and the cycle continues. but... ARGH. i can't articulate my feelings into words. it's like, i'm in dilemma whether to continue, and when they didn't accept my appeal, i debated whether to appeal against my appeal (-.-), and when i finally decided to try and appeal, i was given another chance and now once again, i'm still HESITATING.

BUT CANNOT LAH. take means take. even if i flung my h3 at a levels i will still take.

i guess i have to work doubly hard now... i have to prove to myself and people around that I CAN DO IT. YES, sophia soh, you can do it.

ARGH.... I CAN'T STAND IT.... why can't i be more decisive? why do i still hold on to a subject that will probably bear not much importance in the future? why can't i just quit and walk away and save myself all that trouble?

nevertheless, COME ON, I CAN DO IT. JIAYOU TO ME. (and to everyone else as well)

2008-04-03T06:42:00.001-07:00

i can't believe i didn't mention anything about njcc. two days of excitement, intensity, nervousness, anxiety, happiness, unhappiness, rain, tiredness, too much bread, cereal and not to mention no lunch, ending off with a nice dinner at pizza hut. altogether an amazing two days. we had so many firsts (i don't mean in terms of pieces of metal haha) but in terms of experiences...

from now on, training will only get tougher. we have to work so much harder to improve, to better ourselves, such that we become not just worthy opponents, but opponents others will fear.

JIAYOU. ALL THE WAY.

2008-04-03T06:37:00.000-07:00

rather looking forward to the liberation.

but i still feel rather indignant. but well, it was entirely my own fault for not trying hard enough. i should have just quit while i was ahead, and not have to suffer the ignominy of being kicked out.

2008-03-28T09:10:00.000-07:00

in my haste to write about sadder stuff ie. blocks and its results, i realised i have forgotten to write about stuff that is so much happier.

on wed, we had another TEAM OUTING. and once again, we had FULL attendance. YEAH MAN. we totally rock. after training (which ended before 12!) we headed to ps for lunch at pastamania (ok not so amazing) after which we went to the adidas shop at cathay to look for the team bag. the choice was between two bags with the bag we have now easily winning the most votes. HAHA. so we bought this really nice bag (the only grouse is that the handle thingy is too small) as our team bag. =) the store at cathay only had four bags, so we had to go to heeren and suntec to get the rest. so that was a day of plenty of bus rides and money. alright no link.

the adidas at cathay had this table soccer game. SO FUN. ahahah. apparently some team member shows remarkable ability to shoot the ball in unfailingly, of which i was unable to defend against for a consecutive number of times. since we were playing a knock out game, they managed to keep playing. talent man! HAHA.

(i am utterly amazed by how task oriented some teammates can be. we got the bag in heeren and immediately left. wow. if it were up to me, i'll probably walk around, shop a little before going off.)

anyways at suntec we hung around a little after buying the bags to shop for cute accessories and keychains to hang on our bag to differentiate. i feel we wreck havoc on any shop we step into. having walked around for a loong time to no avail, we finally chanced upon a shop (which i never knew existed, i think it's new) where they sold really cute bear hp straps. there were stuff that looked like mario, astroboy and even homer!

so kewl.

2008-03-28T08:56:00.000-07:00

sometimes i feel horribly dumb. i believe that i am capable of doing much better, just that right now, the results aren't showing. and now i'm in a terrible dilemma... to quit or not to quit, that is the question. i totally feel like just forsaking it all, just throwing the burden away, but something holds me back a little, the nagging feeling that no way, i am not gonna just quit so easily, i'm gonna prove that i can do better.

still the liberation would be tremendous.

no more tearing of hair, cussing, cursing and swearing while doing work. (still there's always math.)
and a tuesday and friday off.

2008-03-24T07:41:00.000-07:00

WHEE blocks are OVER!!! like, finally.
(although from thurs to sun i was effectively already in a holiday mood)

physics paper was surprisingly not too bad. to think i heard all the comments about it being worse than chem and math. but paper 1 was quite bad IMO. for most part of it i was guessing and i think i guessed wrongly. but oh well, IT IS OVER. =)

this week looks to be rather good. no school tomorrow for me, cos i don't take bio or cll (haha) and no sch on wed too, cos it's a holiday granted to us due to good a level results. so i'm going to make very good use of these two days to slack. I WANT TO WATCH A MOVIE. this has been my much oft lament. i want to, but i have no idea what to watch. and i do not have time! so much training. sigh. then a competition on sat and sun. busy week. thursday and friday look ill-placed. i should totally just skip school (haha), i don't think i can face the reality of going back to lessons and tutorials. SIGH.

2008-03-20T09:43:00.000-07:00

after blocks i shall go shop for books because i have a $20 kino voucher! woohoo, thanks mortal! i am not very sure what to buy though, but i most probably will not get a mystery book although it's my favourite genre. mystery books most of the time only bear one reading, to me at least. i am those types who only like to read/watch stuff once, unless it's really nice and i really really like it. so perhaps i shall go for something much more frivolous and fun, maybe a YOUNG ADULT book 'twilight' by stephanie meyer based on recommendation by yengyie and ellen. and if i have money left over i might go for something along the lines of naxiaozizhenshuai, which is yet more fluffy and brainless. another one of my guilty pleasures. sigh. but i really really love the book even if it's in CHINESE translated from korean, even thought i'm not quite a fan of the romance genre.

any recommendations?

2008-03-20T08:31:00.000-07:00

blocks have been terrible. chem and math were especially killers! not to say that gp and econs weren't. sigh. felt so utterly helpless during the tests knowing that there was insufficient time yet i could not speedily attempt anything precisely because i don't know how to.

ANYWAYS! yesterday was a splendid day nonetheless. mostly due to the team. =) we went for lunch at forture after math. the food there was good and the prices friendly. i managed to guess closest to the bill! or even exact because they deducted ten cents from it. then after lunch we went back to school to the salt centre toilet to sleep! it is a great place to sleep cos practically nobody comes in at all and we did have at least a good half hour of sleep before commencing gym. gym was usual, weights and abs, except (omg all our wishes, prayers and rain dances have worked!) we did not have to RUN because it was raining!!! or rather it rained previously and the ground was still wet and slippery and we might fall so therefore we cannot run. excellent.

we went for a TEAM OUTING after gym. one of the few we had if we even did, and the best thing is, we had FULL attendance, all ten of us. we went to queensway to get the team jersey. we selected this nice red fbt jersey. yay. (i still want my hot pink one though!) we're also considering a team bag (cool!). i could do with another bag, (although i have like, so many, but one can never have enough) especially a duffel.

the best part of the day was... going to ikea to eat! i love the cafe at ikea, though i don't go there often. the meatballs are great. everytime i go there i never fail to rave about them. plus just about everything like the chicken wings. i dunno why i like the place there so much, perhaps because it's such a fun place to go to. fun food, fun shopping. oh and some of us in a rather crazy fit, bought this clunky crocs lookalike footwear. HAHA. team slippers(?) haha i have no idea what to call it! they come in such bright funky colours. yeah man, we can always mix and match. wear to training man!

H3 chem test

2008-03-09T10:14:00.000-07:00

i'm staring at the paper, mind in a blank.
two and a half hours
of essentially doing nothing
since there'll be nothing much i can do.
i thumbed through the pages
glanced at the questions,
certain i can't do more than a quarter.
i picked up my pen, starting penning rubbish
in a bid to fill up the stark white foolscap.
the organic compounds loom large and unforgiving,
in desperation i try to recall reaction mechanisms,
functional groups, ethers, lactones, lactams,
and everything i tried cramming
in the past day and a half,
to no avail. so i sit there
taking my own sweet time to write to think,
writing and rewriting answers
which are wrong.
continuing in this manner
aimlessly, i contend the thought of just
going to sleep and spending two hours in a better way.
but i decide no, i will go on
and at least do those i can do.
but what good will it do? for
the pass grade seems distant,
all i can get is a U.

WHAT A SORRY ATTEMPT. AHAHAHA.

2008-03-09T09:24:00.000-07:00

had mr 500 on saturday. it was a loong day. we started out eager and fresh and all geared up to support and cheer our lungs out for all our team mates. by the time noon hit, we were all sluggish and tired, and the extremely hot day didnt help. (but we still cheered for the team of course!) i swear, one can experience the greenhouse effect inside the tent we pitched. there was no air circulation whatsoever inside. after a while we all gave up and got out of the tent, finding it more comfortable to sit outside in a shady area. some of us planned to mug and the enthusiastic start gave way to eventually giving up. haha.

our race was in the afternoon at 3.50. by that time i felt so tired (the temp and humidity were really getting to me) that i didnt feel like racing anymore... of cos when we were in the waters it was an entirely different story. the wind was blowing away ever so gaily which made the waters so choppy. (at times like this, i'm reminded of how much i love mac and its waters. luckily we were on a tiger.) then i guess some of the adrenaline came and we were all geared up and ready to do our very best, then... at the start, jiaen's paddle got stuck in some seaweed (haha) which resulted in the other boats having a headstart. but after that all was fine... or so we thought. (ok we didnt burst) shall have to watch the vid to find out.

after the races were over and we moved the boats to mac (sitting in the lorry was fun!), hx treated us to pizza hut! (some thanks to huiwen who sorta helped us to get the treat) we had a nice satisfying meal. we even played zhongjimima and some of them mixed up some rather gross stuff as forfeit. during the last few games we tried ways and means to ensure hx "zhong-ed" even trying to resort to 'cheating' but in the end there wasnt really a need for it cos he still guessed the number anyway. =P we had lotsa fun. (at the expense of some money from hx hehe) =)

my very eventful day isn't over yet. i still had huang cheng to go to. needless to say, i was very very late. reached there at around 9, and to my pleasant surprise, i arrived before the intermission which meant i still had a complete show to watch. went there in the shabbiest of clothes: orientation tee and fbts. omg i felt soo supremely underdressed, looking at the others all dressed so prettily in heels and dresses and at least in anything better than what i was wearing. luckily i was even allowed to enter the theatre. oh and i can't believe i went for huang cheng alone AGAIN. sigh but it was ok since i like watching concerts and performances and you don't really talk during these. the last play was pretty enjoyable. the storyline was interesting. too bad i missed the first two. but i certainly could not pass up a treat like that!

2008-02-24T08:11:00.001-08:00

i happened to pick up a book by lawrence block about bernie rhodenbarr, a bookseller by day and burglar by night. it's a mystery book (my fav genre!). with a protagonist like that, needless to say, the book was light-hearted, interesting and funny. just like how i like books to be. shall check out more of his books. yay.

2008-02-17T08:47:00.000-08:00

had a rather eventful weekend. i shall try to summarise as briefly as i can.

on sat, had training, no surprise there. jiaen and i tried an AK! omg it was so kewl. it was very unstable. had to keep slapping water. there were some nice saves man. but in the end we still capped thrice. oh well, it's natural i guess. i noticed that i've become a lot better in climbing back to the boat after a capsize. i used to be very bad at it and always had to attempt it a few times before im finally back on the boat. but i don't cap often cos i'm mostly on a t1! haha. but trying a AK was coool. it was so light and could glide very well. that is, if we managed to let it glide. it happened, but those times were few and far between. but oh well, jiayou! we can do it!

after that, we did k4, xinhui, jacq, jiaen and me. after the AK, K4 suddenly felt so stable. it was rather hard to paddle cos coordination was quite hard and we were all rather tired. but it felt quite good sometimes, when we were coordinated. haha. jiayou K4!!! all the way!

on sunday. rather more interesting.

tuition class, i learnt one thing, that i have low tolerance for alcohol. drank a lil bit of white wine, red wine, dessert wine, ice wine and XO. sounds a lot but it actually isn't much. then i got SUPER red and kinda tipsy. could feel a mild throbbing in the head and my face plus arms felt very hot. felt very sleepy as well. now i know why u can't drink and drive. i really felt sluggish and had very slow reflexes ahaha (highly evident during the table soccer game). just realised i cannot be an alcoholic. unlike a certain ellen. also had bakkwa and other kinds of food. the bakkwa was soo good... needless to say, during the lesson, not many could pay full attention. and i am soo not the only one tipsy and red k! and i did not just drink a lil, it was more than that k. i'm not that bad with alcohol. anyway, i wasnt drunk. i was fully aware of what i was doing, and i could walk in a straight line. AHAHAHA.

speaking a of certain ellen, SHE IS HERE! finally! havent seen her for sooo long. the three of us met up. havent seen yy for very very long too!! omg i miss them both so much. it was very long since we last met up but it felt like we never did leave those sec sch yrs (maybe it's only me). other than ellen having aussie accent and dyed hair, it feels so similar to last time, which is great. we ate at sun with moon, which was ex but great! so yummy!!! then we went borders and ellen bought a book (i think i'm going to buy it too =P). we then made our way to heeren to take neoprints! it's been so long since i last took a neoprint, and i believe i've never taken a neoprint with the two! it was great fun, and everything turned out pink and shiny. HAHA. we also talked and had doughnuts specially brought over from aussie. KRISPY KREME! yay. the box was almost squashed and the donuts were in rather bad state, but it was still lovely anyway... thanks ellen! i can't believe she's here and finally being able to meet us instead of just msn-ing. remember, sushi buffet, kbox, shopping... !

i'm feeling happy! love you guyssss!!!!

2008-02-09T23:59:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

past few day's been enjoyable and rather fun. on cny eve we had a nice cosy reunion dinner at my house where we had steamboat. i love steamboat, especially the soup! i can totally ignore every other mouthwatering dishes and just drink bowls of the flavourful soup. <3 on the first day (chu yi) some relatives came over, but the highlight of the day was watching cj7 with a whole bunch of the extended family. the movie's quite nice. i like the dog/fluff ball cross aka cj7, it is super cute. and like other typical stephen chow's films, it has its prerequisite comedic moments. i especially like the part where they parodied kung fu hustle, when the boy put on magic shoes (in a dream) and flew up to the sky, stopped, met an eagle, then descended to the ground and using the ru lai shen zhang or something. priceless. the movie was quite sad too. i had to hold back tears when the dad died despite knowing he would be revived. haha. overall it is not too bad. oh, i admire stephen chow's knack for spotting pretty young girls and casting them in his films, who would refuse anyway.... kitty zhang at a tender age of just 19 (i am soo envious! haha) is very very pretty. and the little boy which is a girl (haha)... too amazing.

on the second day (chu er), we went to wai gong's house. er, nothing to say, haha. later we went to ah mai's house, where there was a fine spread waiting for us. haha ok la not really but the food was good! for the first part of the day we were totally whiling out time away while watching some lame variety show special, because there wasn't much to do. first we planned on watching sweeney todd but the plans were nought as we had to take into account a young cousin of 12 who certainly could not pass off as 18. then we wanted to watch ah long pte ltd, but that did not materialise either because the queue at ps was too long and there were no available timeslots, the only one available was selling fast. but that kind of was a blessing in disguise, because forced into boredom (haha) we played blackjack at very small stakes of about 10 cents to a dollar (and i still lost!) it was good cousin-cousin interaction (haha!) though.

chu san. we had training on that day. i had expected mac to be very empty but to my slight surprise, it was filled with boats just like any other sat. slavedrivers. hahaha. it was a rather terrible training. the wind was so strong. and the waves... the conditions threatened to make all technique go haywire, which it did. and there were boats capping periodically, especially during the waiting part before the racesets. haha. so it was quite demoralising overall. but at least there was hmm something good... all land programs were waived! oh then after training, on a whim i went with some teammates to west mall to eat. like, it's so far and there are so many good places to eat nearby. but i realised it isnt so far afterall, took only abt 20 minutes to get back, i expected more.

so now it's sunday and i'm wasting my time and life away. sigh i should really get to doing vectors 4 and a couple of other stuff that should be done soon. as well as studying for spa and all. upcoming week looks interesting, with cross country coming up. valentine's day too. the day of lurvvve. HAHA.

ok tata.

2008-01-31T08:36:00.000-08:00

GRRRRR. im beginning to hate this, like seriously. omg why did i even think of doing h3? i think i must be crazy or mad or just plain insane. i dunno why they want us to do two bloody tutorials when they're abt the same. maybe cos having it online makes it easier to mark. it sucks TOTALLY. as if doing it on paper isnt bad enough, i have to type it in the computer. like what the, doing it on the computer is crazy, cos u cant identify ANYTHING properly. and it just sucksssss.... GRRRRR. the tutorial is damn long too, and damn tedious. and i bloody almost sacrifice my entire thurs to doing it only. WHY. i wanna say these 2 words soon, but i'm gonna hang on for a while more: I QUIT!

2008-01-31T06:43:00.000-08:00

i went blog hopping just now although im not supposed to cos i have a lot of tutorials to do (H3 u suck!) and i feel very inspired to blog now. im suddenly reminded that today's the last day of january, partly because of the transition from yellow to blue in my diary/planner/notebook. ahaha. now i seriously wonder where january went to, it just came and went. too soon!

cny's coming soon! yay. tho im technically not supposed to celebrate, my family's not too pantang. shld be fine i guess. i <3 cny, although it may sound like the most cliched thing in the world. ahahhaa (to any chinese i guess)

on another note, ellen is coming to singapore! yay!!! man i miss her. havent seen her for abt a year. (gosh it's been long!) hahah we must all have a gathering of sorts k! and luckily she is now slping later and becoming more nocturnal otherwise i will nv have the chance to talk to her online cos she's 2/3 hrs ahead and im always online late. haha. but of all things she has to come to sg like on a sunday and the then it will subsequently be weekdays. bad, cos i dont have time! except perhaps dinner. i end everyday at abt 6-7 except for thurs my only slack day, but which has to be wasted pia-ing h3 hw. sigh. but yeah, dont worry i'll squeeze time out of my packed schedule. i am a very busy person. HAHAHA.

h3 teachers think we're some imba muggers or smthg. not only are the lectures long and hard to understand, they give us hard tutorials as well, and make that 2 tutorials, one hardcopy one on isp. the tutorials are so tedious rawr! all the funny configurations, stereoisomers, enantiomers, DISASTEReomers. sigh. who cares. i think i shld quit while im ahead. (will seriously think abt this when i see my grades slipping.)

and training. cos i have h3 on fri, im missing one water trng every week. i dunno whether it will affect me on water, and i guess i will definitely have to make up in the future when nats are nearing... i'd rather be paddling.

full of ramblings. on and on and on... i think im starting to lose a lot of ambition (i admit some too lofty) but i dunno. i guess ultimately, if i'm happy, if ppl arnd me are happy, i guess that's what matters after all.

2007-12-31T09:54:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! HAPPY 2008! MAY IT BE A WONDERFUL, STUPENDOUS, AMAZING YEAR. haha

2007 has come and gone. seriously where did it go?! sorta just sped past us all. it seems so short, the year 2007, and i swear it's one of my busiest years ever, but it has also been one of the most fulfilling years thus far in my 17 years. so WHEE. dunno whether i've changed, but guess not, im still the same old me, albeit a lil tanner. >.-

wonder what 2008 has in store for us, for me. but i can foresee A LOT of studying and training. haha. im already looking forward to the end of As. i hope that this year (it's already 2008!) will be an amazing one, for one, i'll be the grand old age of eighteen, and be able to experience things previously unknown. HAHAHA. WHATEVER. hope to have the chance to try lots of new things (i'm always game!). and yes of course i always hope for good results and maybe a nice fat scholarship to land on my lap? (HAHA, wishful thinking) yet another important thing to hope for: that i have enough sleep! may i have the discipline to sleep early, study hard, train hard, and to keep all my slacking to a minimum!

two thousand and eight!!!! welcome!

oh well have to go back to school soon. *a number of disgruntled faces and some expletives* i don't want to yet, i'm not done with slacking!

2007-12-29T08:10:00.000-08:00

i wonder where the past two months went to, cos it seriously passed too quickly. i seriously wonder what i have done, yet on hindsight, this seems to be one of my busiest holidays.

i had one of my most memorable and amazing experience, climbing mt kinabalu. i don't even know how i managed it. on some days, it was so terrible and arduous that i wanted to give up every step of the way and just stop in the middle of nowhere. guess it was a matter of gritting-your-teeth, going step by step and just not giving up. also, the motivation and encouragement from the team helped a lot, more so than i guess u guys can imagine. sometimes all it takes is to hear something like jiayou! or we're reaching soon! to infinitely lift the spirits. haha.

though the experience was tiring, challenging and whatnot, it was also great, amazing, fun, memorable, incredible, unbelievable, (you get the idea). but for now, i'm not even going to think of attempting another mountain. once is enough. i may change my mind in the future though.

yet another great experience, the japan-thailand trip. to me personally, one of the highlights of the trip was disneyland! =P guess i'm still a kid at heart. disneyland's amazing. it's so beautiful (all man made artificial beauty but yea) and magical. kinda like living in a fairytale. i love the cinderella castle! also, the alice in wonderland theme was so cute and whimsical, kinda like how i imagined it would be. i went for the haunted mansion ride (a whooping queuing time of 2 hours plus). it was very large scale (i think) and elaborate and some of the effects were quite nice, although it's erm not scary. at all. ahahhaa. i liked the banquet scene a lot though, with the grand set up in a huuge hall complete with chandeliers and flowers and food and apparitions dancing around. nice! also went for the pirates of the carribean ride. the wax figures of jack sparrow look exactly like the real character! seriously. kinda scary but still, lots of jack sparrow, i like =P. also went for other random rides.. most of them quite fun, but no scary ones.
oh and i <3 my mickey mouse beanie =PP disneyland rocks la. i shall go to the original one sometime next time. whee.

japan's nice. the weather's nice and cold, very appreciative of that since i come from the sweltering hot sg. i felt the trip passed like a flash, and i can only remember in random bits and pieces. i can't remember in chronological order cos everything comes flooding in at the same time. but 2 things. i don't like some of the food we had there. some of the food were prepared in advance, so by the time we get there, it was cold and rather unappetizing. luckily for me, i like the japanese short grain rice and the miso soup, so with these two items (which are available almsot every meal), i'm kept rather happy. japan has very good snacks. i loveee the pocky there cos it's much cheaper and there's an amazing variety. i reckoned we ate pocky everyday or so, and whatever flavour i could find i bought! also, the instant noodles there are super good! (of course, they were the pioneers haha) luuv them.

oh and japan's toilets rock. damn clean... im so impressed. their toilets are amazing la (realise this word keeps coming up). there are seat warmers, bidets, flushing sounds and u can adjust the temperate of the seat and water and volume of the flushing sound and whatnot. super cool.

argh im rather lazy already... other than abovementioned, i also took a short trip to msia with the extended family. so fun. talking, yakking, playing cards, tong xiao, shopping, blah blah.. done tgt with a big group. rather fun.

ahh ok i shall just stop. i don't even make sense, i think.

2007-11-23T03:03:00.000-08:00

omg time really flies. where did the past almost-one-month of nov go to? sigh. and i've done nothing productive. i really need to get time management in order. and speaking of management i have to tidy up my room. messy is an understatement, more like a tornado just spun past my room. ok i swear i will start doing my homework soon. ive done about a grand total of TWO chem qns. pls, how do u expect me to do hw in this mood? i just can't force myself to sit down and do hw when i have a million other things to do (such as slping of cos). ok, i will do it soon. BUT all of this will have to wait till next week, for i will off to mount kinabalu. i am very excited, basically because i really dunno what to expect. and i dun think it will be easy for me due to the high altitude, thin oxygen and rather tedious and long climbing. *keeps fingers crossed* excitement.. trepidation..
when i come back i will crash hw... for about 4 days. and see how much i can do. and i seriously suspect i lost my physics HAPPY package (right...). i can't seem to find it yet, but perhaps combing through my room may yield results. of cos, i can always borrow from a friend and hopefully that friend has already done it. ahahaha. i kid of course.

2007-11-08T10:07:00.000-08:00

past few days were rather eventful with class chalet and fac outing.

class chalet was fun! ok of course it was, how could a chalet not be fun. anyway, i must say i am rather amused by the extreme disregard for time the class has. alright im always late myself (OK I APOLOGISE) so i'm not in any position to comment. our supposed meeting at 130 at harbourfront only materialised at about 3 (and me being one of the latest to arrive oops). haha. ok so after meeting up we took the monorail to sentosa which was rather cool since it's the first time i took the new nice revamped monorail haha. then after taking the tram and then walking for a while, we finally reached our destination, coasta sands resort (or smthg like that). alright must say i was rather disappointed with the room. it was so absurdly small (alright maybe not but we had abt 15 ppl?) and had this weirdish shape which made it worse.

at the chalet, we played cards. ohwell, of note was the asshole taidi game that i partook. hmm, suffice to say that this game can almost be renamed in my honour had i continued playing it. oh well i was a king once or twice ok! i started out being the king, and then it went downhill from there. self-fulfilling prophecy man. hmm and there was one particular game that must be mentioned. just thinking of it makes me want to weep. like a huge blow man. hahaha. ohwell i could have won the game in one shot (cos i had a diamond 3 and a wonderful set of cards) had it not been for weilun. omg. that was such a beautiful 5 four of a kind, how rare, how stunning and how lucky. to lay that down would have almost meant certain victory since the only cards left in my hand was a pair of jacks. and there had to be that freaking 6 four of a kind! man. heart attack! like WTH. AHHAHAA. that was such a beautiful set ok! been so long since i had such a lovely hand...

ahahahah ohwell. then bbq. shld have known judging by the number of plastic bags that we were carrying that we were bound to have excess food. bbq was fun... a little. and this kinda unearthed some culinary talents yea, longyi, jack eh... ahhahaha. girls are supposed to know how to cook right? nahh. but the girls did help ok! haha wadeva.

after the bbq it was rather late, but the night is still young. had to bathe downstairs at the communal toilet cos the room only had a toilet and it was not enough. some of us stayed in the room to play mahjong and cards (includes me) late into the night. till around 5 i guess, then we tried to go and slp. suffice to say that it wasnt very successful and i guess the slping positions were somehow rather awkward. HAHA. hmm then most of the others right, thinking that they were such brave souls, embarked on a night/haunted trail, which i have heard, did not go too well since they were too frightened to enter this very dark, small, cramped and misty place. (i would have already freaked out i think) so yea the other bunch of ppl managed to stay up the entire night! apparently played cards or went to the beach. for my sanity and well being i think slp is more impt. ahahaha

long post already. and i still havent gotten to fac outing yet.

so when the sun rose and it was bright and dandy (cloudy rather) we went swimming. once again got scolded for being in a tee. hmm then we went to the beach, which is almost my single objective for going to sentosa. got myself into a game of football with the guys, a game which i utterly suck at cos for one, i totally do not know how to play at all, and for two, i do not understand at all. so there i was standing around like an idiot, running around sometimes, and feeling very sleepy all the while. so after a while, i abandoned this fruitless game and wandered into the very inviting waters. WHEE I LOVE BEING IN THE SEA. it's so nice and warm (we're tropical yea)! i love the waves, how it slams into us... man i could just stay in the sea for ages. (cept that u get sand everywhere which isnt so nice)

after this then fac outing! (which on hindsight wasnt very fun or exciting or anything) had to leave sentosa lugging around my bag and that extremely heavy mahjong set around. (thanks chenyang for helping occasionally!) i think the best thing we did before fac outing was to take a random bus and slp for an hr before going to bugis... it did wonders.

fac outing was not bad! ok stardust was great! loved the premise and the storyline. =P im a sucker for most things fantasy i guess. ahahha.

hmm and the fac king and queen thing was fun too! they were all quite entertaining. must say i think the fac king and queen are very deserving of the title. HAHAHA.

ok that was nice. now i have to sleep!

GOODNIGHT! =P

2007-11-04T03:34:00.000-08:00

ahahaha it's been rather a long time since i last updated.

so hols has begun, and my boring routine but fun lifestyle has begun again, to be filled with such activities like training (ok not fun not boring), shopping, eating out, movieing, watching youtube and crunchyroll, reading, sleeping almost excessively, facebooking and friendstering...

nice eh! i am so not going to touch books for at least another few weeks or so, before i even think about the hol assignments. i think there are a few, assuming i can even find them first.

hmm, and i'm also thinking of doing some different stuff this hol. that will come later..

and woohooo, finally the cls is showing some signs of enthusiasm and we are actually going to have our class chalet! which is going to be held tmr and the day after and the day after the day after. LOL. it's been soo damn long since i last went to a chalet, and for that matter, sentosa as well. sigh, i really am devoid of life. i wonder what we'll be doing. for most part, i foresee myself on the beach and sea, soaking in the wondrous sun (ok i get that a lot from canoeing in already) and the salty smell of the seawater.

well this sounds like fun!

on an entirely different note, i listened to the new jay chou album recently. sadly to say, it's only ok and the songs are mostly like rehashes of his previous songs. the album doesn't break new ground, except maybe for the super catchy but very weird single niu zai hen mang. totally different from his usual style, but i guess it doesn't really come off well. ok, fine i started out not really liking the song, but i seriously suspect it is starting to grow on me, with its ridiculously catchy sound and humourous lyrics. maybe humourous isnt the right word, more like a self deprecating cowboy, if that makes any sense at all. whatever. ahahaha.

there are nice songs in the album, of course. but they mostly sound very similar to his previous songs. but that's his style, and i guess i like it. DUH.

ahahaha.

oo and i also listened to the new FIR album as well. although i didn't take too well to it initially, the album bears repeated listens. yea it really does. the more i listen to it, the more i like it. but i don't quite like the english numbers. i am of the opinion that taiwanese singers shld not attempt english songs, unless they are like ABC or smthg. seriously. and i still think FIR's second album wu xian is the best! loved it man. k la, i just like FIR.

i realised i like lots of second albums, especially JJ lin's. his second album di er tian tang just rocks totally! seriously. it's so damn good. ahahaha. and it has one of my favourite songs mei ren yu, which still causes shivers and goosebumps when i listen to it. i rmb i totally stunned diao when i first paid attention to the song. hahaha.

byez

2007-10-26T08:09:00.000-07:00

sighh. this is bad.

canoeing is kinda making me bigger than i already am. or whatever. i dunno. sigh. not like im not big enough.
sigh.
nvm. it's good to be strong. ahaha.

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL.
WHEE.

had to hand in h3 application forms. huge hassle. like, half the school can take so u see like sooo many ppl everywhere.. in the photocopy shop, college reception, kong chian admin, staff room... running around like crazy. the last min person that i am, i only photocopied all the things required and certified them today. there was a lot of waiting involved. and queuing. the college reception was.. haha. there were boxes to put the envelopes in and needless to say it was filled.. just had to slip the envelope in. it was messy messy. ahahaa.... wadeva la..

dunno whether can get in. seems like competition is really really stiff. very limited places. hope i get organic chem XD ahahaha.

2007-10-13T09:14:00.000-07:00

whew! this week was a rather hectic week for me.

ahma passed away last sunday. the wake was held at my house, so the house was filled with visitors the past few days. there was the coffin and the altar (?) at the porch. there was also many tables and chairs and tentage outside the house. it's a rather rare sight i would guess. ok la, i wasnt that busy, considering i still came to school (could have gotten leave for 5 days) and returned rather late (ohwell rather guilty of that i guess). it's the adults (esp papa) who had to entertain like the guests. ahaha...

we received an inordinate number of flowers and blankets and mostly once again addressed to pa. right now there's a huge pile of blankets somewhere in the house, even after most relatives have chosen a few.

i guess this had an effect of bringing some of us cousins a lil closer. i find myself talking to some cousins whom i've never really spoken to before. and that's great.

hmm and i guess this kinda removed my irrational fear of the temple last time. ohwell i used to get goosebumps whenever i step into a temple.well i guess u can tell im not buddhist/taoist/hindu/ anything ahah. don't ask why i have no idea either. so erm i felt nothing when i went into the temple this time.. so that's good. (freethinker btw)

i guess we weren't too sad abt it... ahma's had a long life. my main regret is that i never got to know ahma very well or to be close to her.

rip.

2007-09-29T07:37:00.000-07:00

omg can't believe it. i finally got a crumpler bag! rawr what a big money waster. just blew abt a hundred bucks on a bag. but yea finally. feels weird to finally have smthg ive been coveting for a while, but great. ahaha. YAY. =PPP bigbigsmiles.

hmm i also listened to F.I.R's new album.. it's nice! most songs are nice.. i particularly like the dishixingxing and yueyawan.

AND i cant believe im slacking so much. it's weird, considering how much studying and mugging there was to be done not too long ago... and yup just to rub it in, good luck bio peeps! and geog peeps! ahahaha. ohwell physics ppl actually still have a damn spa.. rawr.. but who cares (right now) ahahah..

2007-09-27T07:35:00.000-07:00

omg. promos are going to be over so soon.. in just one more day, it will be over.. and then, my dear, liberation, freedom! (haha)
i can almost feel it.. and i'm feeling so hyped up and excited and nervous and all in one cos tmr's math, which is the singular subject that may be capable of causing my downfall. math. the last and biggest hurdle i have to cross, and after that, it will be liberation, bliss, happiness! and a complete neglect for studies!

(im feeling all shivery and tense just thinking of the prospect...)

yes.. in just a while. it will be over.

fingers are kept crossed, hopefully tmr's math paper won't be so hard such that i break down or start swearing in the middle of the paper. or i may be a complete meanie and wish that it's so damnn hard such that it kills the whole cohort, as an otherwise lower standard paper will have the same effect on me.

im fadinggg... to a shadow of my former glorious self (pukespukes) ahaha jkjk. but yea im fading. and coming back to the pre canoeing days of fairness, my former glorious but not very dark tan is gone... i need to go back under the sun instead of being cooped up in reading rooms or libraries! and being cooped up in rooms as such have the effect of making me eat a lot of junk food. studying doesnt help. so i need to get out once again and go exercise. SIGHH. this is bad.

2007-09-24T09:16:00.000-07:00

hmm just felt like updating a little today.

just got through gp and econs. what a horrible combination, six hours of writing.. hands and fingers were cramped up after that, i couldn't even crack my knuckles properly. further exacerbated by the terrible cold. the hall, although not freezing by normal standards, felt very cold during the exams, some part due to nerves as well.

questions were ok and there was a good mix. for gp i felt i could have written my essay a lot better.. sigh. i was writing and i kind of lost track of my thoughts and the essay feels kinda hastily put tgt.. bleargh. but whatever la, it's ok. and it's a load off my mind for now..

sigh chem today. (it's past 12) and it's a subject i rather feel strongly for. hope i do well. organic chem, do not let me down. i hope i can rmb all the stupid details. sigh....

MANN. I REALLY hate exams. omg.

alright not really. more like a love-hate relationship.

2007-09-19T09:08:00.001-07:00

haha just felt like updating a little.

it's been too damn fast. orientation days seemed just yesterday. and now we find ourselves facing the impending promotional exams, and the last day of lectures and tutorials just came and went. it's too fast. time seems like a speeding bullet train, it's so fast i can barely catch my breath. who would have known. still rmb when i first came in all wide eyed wonder-y, stepping into the compound and feeling that hmm, somehow this is my sch.. just felt a bit weird then. i somehow rmb i told myself last year (yes it's been a year) that i'll make hc my school the next year, which i did. and now i've plonked myself there for close to a year, and from having nothing to do with the sch, have come to feel part of it. (omg this sounds so er propaganda-ish).

oh well, ytd's (as it's past midnight now) lessons and stuff was rather usual, despite it being the so-called last day where we have official lessons. last lesson of the day was chem (dao pw!) and it's rather a fitting end cos it's my favourite subject.

haha.

mugmugmugmugmug. ohwell. promos will be over soon.

2007-09-19T09:08:00.000-07:00

haha just felt like updating a little.

it's been too damn fast. orientation days seemed just yesterday. and not we find ourselves facing the impending promotional exams, and the last day of lectures and tutorials just came and went. it's too fast. time seems like a speeding bullet train, it's so fast i can barely catch my breath. who would have known. still rmb when i first came in all wide eyed wonder-y, stepping into the compound and feeling that hmm, somehow this is my sch.. just felt a bit weird then. i somehow rmb i told myself last year (yes it's been a year) that i'll make hc my school the next year, which i did. and now i've plonked myself there for close to a year, and from having nothing to do with the sch, have come to feel part of it. (omg this sounds so er propaganda-ish).

oh well, ytd's (as it's past midnight now) lessons and stuff was rather usual, despite it being the so-called last day where we have official lessons. last lesson of the day was chem (dao pw!) and it's rather a fitting end cos it's my favourite subject.

haha.

mugmugmugmugmug. ohwell. promos will be over soon.

2007-09-14T09:08:00.000-07:00

ohwell things have come full circle. and math has come back to haunt me once again.

math, one fine day, one day, just u wait. i'll overcome u one day. and do all the stuff that u throw at me.

OMG DON'T...

2007-09-14T08:56:00.000-07:00

im in despair. seriously.. especially over math, which is my singularly most hopeless subject.
i know i just dont have a head for math. i just totally DIE. the tests of late have all killed me.. and i know, it's not just being merely careless or being too tired or whatever lame excuse i can come up with. think it's more to do with lack of practice and a complete inability on my part to do math. it's not that i hate math.. i like it if i can do it, and sometimes it even is strangely wonderful how the numbers just come tgt and how completely unrelated quantities can somehow relate.. and being able to do math allows me to feel a sense of accomplishment and it somehow makes my brain more orderly..(?)

but sigh this doesnt happen anymore. and now all that face me is just a mess of senseless figures and calculations. and it's me.. like how i dun even bother to try and do it. cos i know i probably won't be able to do. i'll do bit parts.. those simple ones eg integration substitution, i'll do all the subs and dx and changing everything, but when it comes to really integrating it, i'm at a loss... i really think i dun have an ability for math... and now the numbers are a mess and my brain is in a mess.. and i'm so damn afraid. damnit. i'll mug math! MUG MATH...

SIGH. im think that i may be rather dumb, and all the past has been a fluke. ohwell.

2007-09-07T10:31:00.000-07:00

I THINK IM LOSING MY MIND SOON.
OR RATHER. I LACK SOME KIND OF MOTIVATION.
I NEED A CERTAIN ENVIRONMENT TO STUDY. LIKE IF I'M AT SCH OR LIBRARY I CAN SOMEHOW CONCENTRATE AND DO SOME PRODUCTIVE WORK (unless of course im with a certain ali).
SO THAT'S LIKE OK. BUT ONCE I GET HOME, I SOMEHOW CANNOT ATTAIN THAT KIND OF MOTIVATION OR CONCENTRATION ANYMORE. (alright maybe it's more due to a lack of trying but yea.. the laptop and internet proves a much greater source of distraction)

i dunno what's getting over me. i dun feel motivated which is worrying cos promos are so close. damnit. i NEED TO GET IT IN MY HEAD THAT STUDYING IS OF IMMENSE IMPORTANCE NOW. LIKE YESS> AND TO ACTUALLY CONCENTRATE AND DO STUFF PROPERLY, instead of spending maybe four hours on three physics questions. what horrid, i wouldn't say waste of time, procrastination.

and likE WOW, i watched a MOVIE. evan almighty. with my family. well, it wasnt too bad, although many critics panned it. i kinda enjoyed it, but then again i like most comedies and slapstick stuff. i'm not a very cheem person at any rate, there's no need for deep analysis or thought at the end of a movie. so well, evan almighty is really light fluffy stuff. which i like sometimes.

although my fav genres are EPICS. oh well. the drama and scale appeals to me, although some of them can be rather crappy at times and erm action, esp all the fighting types.. damn cool. like wuxia stuff, or those high tech weapon filled fighting. COOL. and i dont really like romcoms. ahaha.

hm i still wanna watch ratatouille. will see about that. see whether i can feel UNguilty (i cant find a word) about watching a movie when i shld be studying (but at that point of time i may not be doing so). or i shall hope that ratatouille plays till the end of sept, by that time which promos would have ended and i'll have an entire few months to go crazy.

hmm i'm updating SO regularly nowadays. wow. hmm and i also found out that ppl actually read my blog! (hey if ure reading leave a tag =P)

ohyea which reminds me. i think i've seen all that is to be seen in MAF. it's actually quite cool!! and the fountain is really actually not too bad. and i finally saw the famed fireballs. well they're not tt cool la, hot maybe ahaha, and they drip ash everywhere i would think. yup!

2007-09-03T06:40:00.000-07:00

sigh. i think i get distracted way too easily and i need a lot of stress before i go do something to rectify my present situation. (not like promos being less than three weeks away is not stress enough.

i think i love the net too much, what with it chock full of friendster stuff, blogs and youtube videos. great ways to spy, to check out latest gossips and to listen to nice music, or watch stupid shows. which all adds up to = a lot of time wasted. SIGH.

i know. lame right.

anyways. my studies are completely not up to standard. i shudder to think how i'll face math. (gather up courage) i dunno. really. someone make me study, force me to!

ahh i'll camp at hc for the next few days. hopefully i'll be able to discipline myself there. (looking at everyone else mugging their heads off)

what i shall accomplish:
`math diff eqn tut (duh, ms lim wants it)
`maclaurin tut and 7c. both my enemies
`organic chem stuff.
`ohwell do that gp summary again since my previous effort does not amount to much.
`do econs erm... market structures and beyond. complete with notes + all graphs to be drawn out and memorised. + externality tut, of which i know nothing of whee.
`complete the physics paper mr chua gave. (MUST!) and commit to memory all the damn formulas

sigh. and watch ratatouille. (is that how u spell it?)

everyone tells me secret is good. sigh. i know im the weirdest person u find around, like, you're a jay chou fan and u havent watched secret?! like omg..
ohwell i'll watch it after promos. hopefully on dvd if some kind soul lends me, dun think i'll buy it ahaha, or i'll turn to other means which are not so how-should-i-say encouraged by certain members of the public? HAHAHA dao.

ohwell.

MUG. MUG. MUG. MUG.

(seems like i am either refering to a cup, a certain brand of root beer or robbing someone)

2007-08-30T08:09:00.000-07:00

this is crazy. there's barely a measly three weeks to the start of the promos and time is such a limited resource. to ingest thick stacks of notes for every single subject all with the aim of spewing them out for promos just seems kinda dumb to me. but i guess, this i what we are here for (at least for this period of our lives) yes. to mug. which i (sadly but expectedly) have not started at all. seriously we should have a holiday. not holiday-holiday, but a time where we do not have to attend school so that i can plonk myself in a library/reading room and camp there for extended hours so as to cram all the stupid notes into my brain. and why not. at least for blocks we had the june hols and that hols was a reminder, a sign for us to start mugging. and with training intensifying during the jun hols, it also awakened the part of me so often unaroused to start studying.

i wonder why people call studying mugging. isnt mugging like robbing someone at knifepoint (alrite not too sure abt this).

studying sucks. im currently stuck, in the sense that i do not even know where to begin. casting my eye upon my piles of notes all arranged ever-so-neatly in an order that no one can ever comprehend, i am stuck, i know not where to commence. should i do chem first, since that is sort of a favourite subject of mine, despite my doing badly for it. i feel that chem is a subject which i MAY be able to do well in, at least there is a faint glimmer of hope of it. for the rest, they are all goners. physics. sigh.. luckily the topics of late have not been too confusing, and my limited understanding mostly helped by mr chua since my lecture and tutorial times in sch are spent in ways not considered to be helpful to my understanding of the subject. math.. the latest lecture test fully shows up my inadequacies in math. when i thought i could finally make a teeny bit of sense of differentiation and integration, and bam, this test comes and takes away every lil bit of confidence i have in my already lousy ability to do math. im very very worried about math more so than i can ever emphasize. ive never been good in math seriously. i take a hell of a long time to work out simple problems, i make too many careless mistakes for my own good, i read questions wrongly, i apply the wrong formulas etc. and my understanding and knowledge of the gc is so limited i only know how to plot the most basic of curves. econs. *shivers* the horrors of it. and it's not as if it's not manageable. econs is weird, you can think you did relatively well for something when its actually a pile of crap. and the time given to write essays is so short that it leaves almost no time for thought. it's like, u read the qn and u start writing, immediately. and if u forget anything, gdbye to u. (which i did for one part of pd) i dunno what to make of econs. there are a freaking number of topics for any of which an essay qn can based on. which shld i study. and i have to start memorising all curves and graphs as well as their explanations. and i cannot afford to make any mistake. SIGH. econs. u suck.

omg. without realising, this page is already filled with so many ramblings and crap. ohwell. i guess i had too many things to say but nv had the chance to. and today i decide to finally update my very stagnant blog, and for the first time in a long while, it's not about canoe. ahahah. but abt something worse.

promos. be over soon. and pls may i get through it safely, and be able to emerge from it with a faint glimmer of a smile and a feeling of satisfaction that i know i did ok.
(i dont think that's gonna happen)

after the promos, i am going to do so many things i've wanted to do for so long. includes cycling, rollerblading (regular after exam activities), go watch like a million movies. (ive been to the cinema perhaps thrice this year, wow), go shopping (greed and materialism tell me that my wardrobe needs an update), go online (which i already do, but for not so desirable reasons like pw), meet up with friends (esp sc ppl) and last but not least READ (im going to procure all the books ive always wanted to read! yay!)

point to note. i realise im kinda getting dependent on the usual spell checks available nowadays. it seems that i know not the exact spelling of the word, but the erm, form of it, and i try out various spellings in order to get rid of the red squiggly line.

HAHA.

WHEE LONG POST. so fun.

2007-07-22T09:21:00.000-07:00

hm i feel inspired to blog. ahhaa ok whatever.

ncc on sat and sun. i went only on sat and decided not to go on sat cos i was tired. sorry ppl.

(seriously VERY tired on sat) i kinda slept at arnd 2am for the past week so by the time sat came i was in a zombie like state. seriously whatever opportunity i had, even if it was only for a few mins, i closed my eyes. if only i were this efficient when it came to schwork it wld be great.

sat. had a 10k race on k2 with xinhui. well, we came in last out of 12. it was kinda expected since we were supposed to go there to have fun and treat it as a training session. we didnt cap! considering this is my 3rd or 4th time on a k2, it's not too bad yea. =P i realised k2 is vastly different from t1 and to a certain extent as well, k1. cos im the backman, and that's really different from being a singles paddler. (well i guess if ure the frontman it shld be arnd the same) i also realised that coordinating is not easy, and that paddling as a backman, all i had to concentrate on was xinhui's strokes and try to follow properly. and the view of someone in front of u instead of a 'vast' expanse of water is rather different as well. some times i slipped and cldnt really match her frequency (sorry..) but i shld think most of the time it was ok. the boat tilted a lil here and there, mostly to the right though, but we were mostly in no danger of capping. i didnt really slap water often, mostly because it was rather stable. having been paddling t1 for a long time, im not really used to slapping water yet, but lucky this action comes automatically most of the time. oh yea, and halfway during the race it started to rain, and as suddenly as it began, it stopped after a while. overall the race was rather fun in a weird way, and it was over in about an hour. (slightly over)

during the past few days i also had the opportunity to try k1. it is a very different experience yet in some ways it's rather similar to being on a t1. k1 is just more unstable. much more. esp with a high seat. i had the opportunity to try both high seat and low seat for k1. and i must say there is really a lot of difference between them. i can't say for others but to me, high seat was so much more unstable. i nv knew there were high seats and low seats before this, much less know that there was such a big diff between them. who wld have thought that a FEW cm of elevation wld make such a diff. man, for now, the high seat sucks. i keep capping so much. at the pontoon, while getting into boat, CAP. paddle a few strokes, CAP. trying to maneouver out of the mud and rocks, CAP. in the middle of lagoon, CAP. trying to stop boat, cap. in short, just kept capping, and many times i capped over rocks and got some cuts and bruises. actually it's not so much a lot more unstable, but the capping is a lot more unpredictable. like when i'm thinking that i'm able to go for a lil more, then i'll just cap. at least for a low seat and a lower cg, it's NOT too bad, but i still cap. capping is quite fun actually, just that it's really ma fan. have to do so many things. hmm. to think that until now i still have a certain fear of the water. like of drowning. im almost a non swimmer. but in a way i like being in the water.

oh, and having a rudder rocks. to think when others cld have it so easy when it came to changing direction, i had to keep sweeping, sweeping, sweeping. oh well, but shifting the tiller is rather hard on the feet. (i used to think the stick thing was called the rudder but i guess the rudder is the thing in the water.) and now changing the direction is easier. so that's great.

man i really hope i get to train on k. but if i have to go back to a t (although im not tt fast la sad) well that will be nice as well.

haha. this is a long post. i realise quite a lot of posts in my blog (which does not have many posts) are dedicated to canoe. sigh. my life is becoming so weird and mundane. other than usual sch stuff it's always canoe. other than mugging, it's canoeing. and vice versa. while i used to be SOOO free during sec sch and cld go out whenever anyone asked, now it's like, are u free? im like nooo, got training. kinda sad. but it's worth it. =P

(and yes, im glad i didnt get into council)

2007-07-15T07:43:00.000-07:00

suddenly felt like resurrecting my blog. it's been soo long since i last updated. looking back at my entries, and some of them were about council stuff, i wonder why i even debated whether to stay in canoe. if u ask me this question now, it would undoubtably be a YES, a resounding YES.

the past few days happened very quickly and i'm kinda overwhelmed by it.

there was nationals. WE GOT SECOND. TEAM SILVER. HCANOE <3. IM SO DAMN PROUD OF US! WE DID IT!!!!!!!

for me, this nationals wasnt a good experience, but i learnt a very important thing. i got third in my heat (ok i know it isnt very good) but it wld have gained me a place in the semis, if not for one thing. i got disqualified. what a damn anticlimax. i cut lanes or something, or at least got very close to the next lane. and that's why i got disqualified. yes. at any rate i will NEVER repeat this mistake ever. i think i forgot what everyone said about staying in the centre of the lane. i tried though, very hard. the winds were blowing like crazy and my boat kept drifting. almost half of the 1k i kept sweeping. like crazy. it was so damn hard. my timing and performance is probably the worse in a very long time. i cld feel it. it was so damn hard to control everything. i cldnt even zham properly, because if i did, i know i would definitely obviously cut lane. my rating was low, seriously, and i tried to put in power to compensate for it. but what the hell, in the end, the only thing i cld see in the scoresheet was a big DQ next to my name.

it's ok tho. im ok already, no longer upset or angsty. dont worry, i will keep trying my very best and train hard, and nv repeat this mistake again. i dunno why though, but when ppl knew of my disqualification, they always invariably told me not to be sad coz i still have a next year. i wonder why, but ok yes i still do have another year. (and thank gdness for that) the thing is, i only have a precious TWO years to compete, and im not gonna waste it man. ahhhaa.

hahaa ok. the 3 days in bedok. wow. i tell u, watching teammates paddle in their races was a nervewrecking experience. even though i wasnt the one paddling, i cld feel the kind of tension, that kind of excitement, nervousness. as i watched each race, i cld feel that kind of yearning, yearning for everyone to do well, to put in their best, to give their all, to achieve some kind of result. we cheered until we were all hoarse. cheering with heart, with passion. for hcanoe.

during the finals day, it was super nervewrecking. ahahah sophia shld know. (hahha, damn scary that one, but it turned out ok luckily). some of us had no races so we helped out the rest. and we kept counting the points. each and every race was so damn important to us, each and every single point mattered. we kept counting, not only for us, but also for other schs, to see whether we cld have a fighting chance for the placing we wanted.

and yes. we did. we did it.

omg.

now nationals are over. there's still ncc. i hope i can paddle well. hmm if it goes well, i might paddle a k2, which is kinda like the first time i'm gg to paddle a doubles. ohwell i tried once before, for abt a few mins, i guess that doesnt really count for much ahahaha. hmm hope i can do it. oh well, IM GOING TO DO IT. no use hoping.

ok entry seems uber long already. post comps i shall update another time. if i even do.

till then. bye.

<3

2007-05-17T08:22:00.000-07:00

hmm just decided to update suddenly.

whatever la..

hmm ntg much going on..

had nwkc.

hmm supposed to go for 1 star kayaking on sun and nxt sat, and i dun think i can go coz of tuition on sun. and i already missed tuition last sunday due to nwkc. sighh. what shld i do...?

wahahaha.

2007-04-03T05:26:00.000-07:00

sighh.. i didnt get into council, as expected.. haha..

there's a slight sense of disappointment i feel right now, which im pretty sure i'll get over soon. of coz the very fact that i'm campaigning for council shows that i do want to get in.. even if it's only slightly..

but im not too disappointed coz i knew i could not in any way make it in.. the slack campaigning, weird video and my absolute crap qna session.. i KNEW immediately after qna tt i wasnt going to get in, and was already resigned to that fact. seriously.. and the number of ppl i know in artemis.. too little. haha..

BUT. 6B HAS A COUNCILLOR! and he is none other than eddie lim, otherwise known as no link, tony leung, longan and various other names as well.. he is testament to the fact that one does not need a good campaign or a good video to get in.. and he proves that it is possible to get into council with 0 COST! pro rite...! but what he has is... a LOT of lameness... haha. =P

way to go man~ jia you... quite proud of u!

=PP

so i guess im back to canoe.. =P.. not like i have much of a choice.. as i said, there is a simple and clear solution at the end of the day. =PP

2007-03-30T08:50:00.000-07:00

sighh..

i really kinda regret this.. seriously..

my council campaign group is so slack i cannot believe it.. and that includes myself... where is all the spirit and drive and determination that i know is somewhere inside of me? WHERE.. omg i cannot believe i can be THIS SLACK... seriously slack tho i may be, it really isnt THAT BAD..shoot..

i really think it's such a shame and embarrassment to actually go up on stage and show such a crap video, and to give an almost impromptu speech to a crowd.. (WELL it isnt exactly cos i did think abt what to say). i know i can give a good speech and rally a crowd (at least i think i can).. but the crowd.. omg... so listless, restless and completely not paying attn at all... what cld we have done! sighh! at this rate, im nv gonna garner any votes from the ppl who don't know me... at least for ppl in my class and perhaps snr class, i think most will vote for us... i think even if it means going against what they feel abt who is the best and most capable of leading and serving.. coz from what i have presented, no such evidence of it exists. sighh i guess the only way we can salvage anything is to try smthg drastic.. smthg that will be memorable, smthg that can make ppl sit up and take notice, smthg lame and stupid, smthg really gimmicky. SIGHHH.

seriously. i think we shld do some gimmicks.. will think about it.

seriously i dunno whether i actually wanna get in or not. i DO to a certain extent, want to get in. but i wont be so sad and mope around if i dont. SIGH..

anyways in short,
give me this opportunity to serve you guys, to be part of the students' council.
vote for me and allow me to serve u all.
vote for me and my group members, eddie and jack.

ahahaha...

a rather weird post to say the least. ok.. if artemis ppl come across it, DO VOTE FOR US!

2007-03-28T07:02:00.000-07:00

ahaha doing council campaign stuff at my hse now.. wahahah!

slack again wahahah..

SIGHHHH

2007-03-25T09:05:00.000-07:00

oh man. i just realised my council campaign group is SLACK SLACK SLACK.

when ppl are sweating buckets over their videos, posters, banners and gimmicks, we HAVEN'T STARTED YET. YES, that is how slack we are.

and when we were supposed to be at jack's hse filming our vid, we ended up only planning a very vague plot of the video. we havent finalised anything at all. posters.. we intend to do tmr. banner, DAO. heck care it. too late liao, not possible to do... gimmicks, might end up daoing it i guess, unless we can think up of an easy-to-achieve and economical solution within er 3 days..?

and we ended up playing cards, mahjong and gossiping at jack's hse..

sighh.. have to chiong already..

seriously what was i thinking when i signed up for council? and to do it with a bunch of slack, playful ppl (me included, so there's nothing against u guys wahhaa), what made me think that we'll actually get anything done! SIGHH... haha.. and since we think council is really a popularity contest, we shall get in thru popularity, charisma and sheer luck =P *wahaha*

HAHAHAHAHAHA..

IN SHORT, IF EVER U COME ACROSS THIS BLOG, VOTE FOR ME, EDDIE AND JACK.
(esp if u're from artemis! THANKS)

2007-03-23T09:36:00.000-07:00

ahh i think i kinda like canoe.. the cca.. the sport.. the amazing wonderful team, the snrs, the jnrs (us la).. the camaraderie.. the bond..despite the hiongness.. despite the fact that i cant canoe very well (for now, hopefully)..

SIGH. i'll be very reluctant to give it all up if i really need to.

there might be a simple, clear soln at the end of the day. and perhaps all this thinking is completely uncalled for...

ahh. i dont know.

i shall wait and see.

2007-03-12T09:03:00.000-07:00

whee decided to change my template! got kinda tired of the other one! woohoo new look for now...

i'm kinda stuck in a dilemma now.. and the thing is, the problem hasn't yet surfaced. so actually no matter how much i think now, it will not make a difference. for the result of one is not out yet.. and hence i cant decide on the eventual choice i will make..

what shld i hope for. and what shld i choose?

shall not think too much.. there might be a very very simple and clear solution.. soon.

2007-03-10T09:35:00.000-08:00

i went for huang cheng.

huang cheng was GOOD!

i must say that the entire performance was very professional. the set-up, various plays, actors and actresses, backstage crew.. all were very good.

all very professional. the amount of time put in, the efforts everyone put in. i can say all of them paid off, as a member of the audience on saturday 7.30pm. (and it's only sat.. the best performance usually on the last day rite.. which is tmr)

ahaha i think i kinda zhuan dao today. first half rite had to sit somewhat 2 levels above e stage.. so what i see is literally birds' eye view.. and everything looked so tiny. then after the interval, i saw yk op shermin larissa and hanny! (so cool rite, hvnt seen them for abt a month liao, save for yk la.) (then again, a month isnt tt long =P) and they had this free seat near them.. so i sat there! and they bought the 14 bucks tix! hehe =PP

the actors were very good!!!

and i think eileen did v well! great job man! too bad didnt get to see her bkstage.

and everyone else too... not forgetting everyone else..

ahaha i also realised quite a lot of ppl in my snr cls are in huang cheng (xuan chuan).. wahaha..

=PP

yay march hols are here!!!!!
finally can catch up on my slp.. im seriously lacking it.. been falling aslp most of the time. SIGH i know i shldnt be slping in class, but it just happens. sometimes. usually. most of the time. i think i've slpt in more lectures than i have been awake in them. sighh.. must slp more.. (notice i didnt say earlier) =P

i hope to get the hc u soon. too bad cldnt get it during the hols.. i wanted to wash it 5 times since it apparently is waterproof initially.. ahaha. and the entire u is very stiff, very rough.. pretty much like a rice sack. colour too =P also intend to use drawstring, unless there is a better way to make the shirt appear tucked in when it actually isnt..

i need to pack my stuff too.. my folders contain notes from the very 1st lecture we had.. no wonder my bag feels extraordinarily heavy.. also need to replenish my stationary. everything running out. also need to mug. esp phys. sigh. have nt been paying attn, catch no ball most of the time. perhaps shld really change to bcme yea. or LIT GEOG CSC KI. MY FAVE COMBI. ahaha RIGHT.

yay and since the hols are here. i want a cls gathering.
i wanna go ubin cycle. or east coast
wanna watch movie. dreamgirls. if it's still playing. or any other nice ones coming up?
wanna go kbox.
wanna play more mahjong and bridge and all manners of card games.
watch stupid hana kimi, trying to resist for now. since i prob will be addicted if i start. and i HAVENT. congratulate me.

dunno if got enuf time.

=P

2007-03-04T05:28:00.000-08:00

i just realised this blog is very very dead...

sigh

rather busy now so little time to update my blog. actually this is really an excuse.

most of the time i really have no idea what to say at all. sighh.

had fac cip on say. at some jamiyah nursing home. had to help the old folks there. taught them to make cny lanterns, which is also an eye opener for me coz i didnt know how to make the lanterns b4 =P the occupants are mostly malay and of coz i had to try converse with them in malay, which really brought to light the horrid standard of my malay. sigh =( 4 yrs down the drain. i found myself tongue tied at times, and had to resort to wild gesticulations. SIGH.

the cip was actually quite fun la. coz after a while, i found it erm (easier?) to interact with the old folks. and then later there was the performance (i must say, it was almost completely impromptu ahaha) which went off quite well actually. then there were games haha. and some catchy music playing in the background and some of us actually got quite high. ahahhaa. luckily for us there was erm, a "translator" ahhaha, coz most of the old folks know malay and almost none of us know malay. =P

must say the cip was quite meaningful. i hope we at least brought some joy to the old folks there.

yay im going to east coast park tmr! there's no sch tmr coz hc got gd a level results! and us get rewarded for the huge efforts put in by our snrs! yay! ahahaa... hope that hc can still maintain these kinds of standards.

and one more thing... still rather undecided on whether to join council. i think i will go campaign for it... just give it a shot and see how... and if i get in i'll think again. and i think i will campaign in a group. since doing it alone just seems so nerve-wrecking. and i'm not even famous or popular enough to even think of garnering lots of votes. ahahahah. or perhaps i shall leech onto someone really erm, high profile? which might help. ahahaha. ok la, i'm kidding.

ahaah and canoe also. frankly speaking, i'm actually to like it a bit =P

but wth la. see if can get into council first. not that easy. since we have like what 50 councillors and abt a 1000 plus in the cohort?

excellent

2007-02-11T07:01:00.001-08:00

shall try to type in malay since it'll be one of the last times i'll ever use it.

sudah ada keputusan o levels. ada 7a1s 2a2s dan 2b3. sangat sedih.

a2 untuk chem dan chinese

b3 untuk msp dan hc.

=(

chem saya tak tahu kenapa hanya a2. chem, sains yang saya terlalu baik leh. sian. so low only. damn sad la.... saya tak tahu, tetapi paper damn weird lah.

the worse is bahasa melayu la. kenapa b3??????????? worse that i have ever done la. saya selalu ada a1 atau a2 untuk msp. b3... sigh. damn lousy. i really think my malay is better than just a b3. i did work hard, i memorised some karangan, i memorised some oral topics, i memorised all e peribahasa (heh in eng tho) and in the end what i get is some crap grade. the paper is easy la. to anybody who has ever spoken any malay (fluently and nt with random eng words in sentences) will find it freaking easy. unfortunately i do not. i rmbed i cldnt do some of e mcqs! and its just mcqs lah! damn it. and i know i found e mcq compre hard. (isit ah, cant really rmb)

come to think of it, i REALLY shld have quit while i was ahead. why the hell did i take it for os. it really damaged my grades. sigh. a blemish.

cikgu akan kill me. =P

forget it la.

i dun regret taking malay. at least now i still know a tiny bit and can warble my way thru sentences. yay. but i guess in a while i'll forget it completely. =(

i'm damn sad abt my os. seriously i really could have done better. i know 7a1s isnt bad, 6 pts isnt bad, but it just feels so... wasted. i wanted 9a1s, but fell short of it. it's just tt i feel so... like..i dunno la.... not very happy. like a vague feeling of dissatisfaction. e feeling tt i cld have done better. but im glad i can stay in hci coz i hav grown to love e sch as well as 6b and i really hope to stay in e class for 2 yrs.

if u congratulate me, i'm sorry if i dao or look unhappy. coz i'm not happy with the grades, at all.

but it's fine la. i'm not happy nor sad over it. it's just ok, normal, average, ok.

dont mind me and certainly pls dun kill me.

2007-02-11T07:01:00.000-08:00

shall try to type in malay since it'll be one of the last times i'll ever use it.

sudah ada o levels keputusan. ada 7a1s 2a2s dan 2b3. sangat sedih.

a2 untuk chem dan chinese

b3 untuk msp dan hc.

=(

chem saya tak tahu kenapa hanya a2. chem, sains yang saya terlalu baik leh. sian. so low only. damn sad la.... saya tak tahu, tetapi paper damn weird lah.

the worse is bahasa melayu la. kenapa b3??????????? worse that i have ever done la. saya selalu ada a1 atau a2 untuk msp. b3... sigh. damn lousy. i really think my malay is better than just a b3. i did work hard, i memorised some karangan, i memorised some oral topics, i memorised all e peribahasa (heh in eng tho) and in the end what i get is some crap grade. the paper is easy la. to anybody who has ever spoken any malay (fluently and nt with random eng words in sentences) will find it freaking easy. unfortunately i do not. i rmbed i cldnt do some of e mcqs! and its just mcqs lah! damn it. and i know i found e mcq compre hard. (isit ah, cant really rmb)

come to think of it, i REALLY shld have quit while i was ahead. why the hell did i take it for os. it really damaged my grades. sigh. a blemish.

cikgu akan kill me. =P

forget it la.

i dun regret taking malay. at least now i still know a tiny bit and can warble my way thru sentences. yay. but i guess in a while i'll forget it completely. =(

i'm damn sad abt my os. seriously i really could have done better. i know 7a1s isnt bad, 6 pts isnt bad, but it just feels so... wasted. i wanted 9a1s, but fell short of it. it's just tt i feel so... like..i dunno la.... not very happy. like a vague feeling of dissatisfaction. e feeling tt i cld have done better. but im glad i can stay in hci coz i hav grown to love e sch as well as 6b and i really hope to stay in e class for 2 yrs.

if u congratulate me, i'm sorry if i dao or look unhappy. coz i'm not happy with the grades, at all.

but it's fine la. i'm not happy nor sad over it. it's just ok, normal, average, ok.

dont mind me and certainly pls dun kill me.

2007-02-07T08:08:00.000-08:00

oh man i realised my reputation is dying. if there ever existed one in the first place.

oh i got a new phone. damn nice. so cool somemore. finally got nice cool 3g phone yay!

i'm getting too bimbotic i realised. by sheer utter coincidence, my pencil case, wallet, bag AND handphone are all PINK. damnit.. what's wrong with me!?! i'm not even supposed to like pink! (but actually it's nt the colour that made me choose the thing... the pink stuff just looked the best among the other variations) sigh... sigh.... it just happened to be this way. hahaha. SIGH.

and im supposedly manly/tomboyish... hmm.. what's tt supposed to be man! im like girly and feminine k! even as i say this i dont believe myself. but i realised that u have to be loud no matter what. if not every1 dao u, even after i yell like a million times, STILL they dao. -.- and perhaps that's why they think im erm, manly.. like... rite.. nvm it's still better than being a guy and being known as a sissy or better still, her. =P

and im supposedly the sleeper. oh rite a sleeper is part of the railway track, no? haha nvm being lame here. yeaa but i really cant help it. im nocturnal, i slp late and the lectures are so boring that even if i try to stay awake (and believe me, i do try), slp still seems a more tempting option. as if anyone else ever pays attn. -.-

ahaha... as i said, my reputation is going down the drain. nvm. heck care. hahah =P

but nvm.. im no longer known as the blur one. *looks smug* i guess that's an improvement, no?

=P

nvm this is a random crap post.

2007-02-06T07:56:00.000-08:00

haha hvnt updated for a long. not like anyone ever visits my blog save for myself haha.

we had jts at sakae at cpf building. it was so fun and we made hell of a lot of noise in the restaurant. as it was a dinner buffet, all of us tried to stuff ourselves. our table was the first in the line (and hence we get the food first) and for a while the tables behind couldnt get anything cos we took food continuously. nt bad la... lots of sushi... and a bowl of udon noodles.. felt quite full after that. ahaha...

one table (5 pple) actually ate 88 plates O.o haha

after the food was when most of the fun began... im rather lazy to elaborate but we played zhong ji mi ma!/truth or dare/truth and dare... haha.

and some of us were gg crazy and started singing chi pop songs. ahaha. it's so cool la..in sc i was nv able to do that, solely because almost no one knew any chi songs at all... save for a few. but in hci it's a totally different story. which is good in a way. and not so in another. coz my chinese sucks... badly.

after tt we went to sg river... romantic ah...

not so when u're w almost 2 classes =P

anyways we bought some bacardi breezer and some 5% alcohol drink fr 711. i didnt dare to drink much coz apparently i was turning red. so shi bai la normally also not so bad... hahaha.

at sg river we played MORE zhong ji mi ma, this time up to 1 k. i kena ONCE which is rare. most of the time when i play with ppl i almost nv kena =P. then i chose truth. (i'd rather not run or prance arnd doing stupid stuff, and besides i have ntg to hide =P) shall nt reveal the qn here tho *winks*

left the place at abt 11 plus reached home arnd 12 plus. nt bad ah...

more updates:
my phone is screwed up. like seriously. i nv even knew there cld be such a problem.
my math is quite screwed. diagnostic test argh.

im really unfit and loser. always run slowest in canoe sigh. then canoeing also damn lousy. but i suppose i can always improve after training and all that. and perhaps become like the snrs, so dark and toned. quite cool. sigh which brings me back to this qn. shld i stay in canoe? i know if i dun join a sport cca, i prob wont do ANY exercise on my part and will only become increasingly unhealthier =P. but canoe is rather hiong, with 3 times a wk training at a minimum. hc canoe also lacks girls and i dun think they can afford having ppl quit, after which, i dun think they can form a full team haha. unless girls fr 2nd intake join.

if i dun join canoe i might take up guitar, since i have a guitar rotting and dying away at home, which i shld seriously make use of. guitar seems slacker. =P

and council.. sigh... this one is not up to me to decide whether i can get in. shld i even campaign? seems like council is even worse la.. everyday must stay back till so late, do like so much planning and organising, always chao bz, so crap la. but it definitely looks gd on a testimonial. (right now i think i dun even care for any kind of post. results dun even know whether can make it anot sigh.)

i think i'll just try to campaign la. the rest will be up to the population.

all this applies even if i am forced to change jc. although i think that is unlikely.

SIGH which brings me back to the results. im keeping my fingers crossed, or make that locked in that crossed position. these few days, dun expect me to have a clear mind or even have any will to do hw and tutorials. the impending release of o levels, the key to whether i can even remotely come within a 5 metre radius of hci... is seriously weighing on my mind. on everyone's minds, actually. i really hope i do. i hvnt as yet entertained the thought of leaving.. which wld mean i do really badly for my os. and i'll be very very sad...coz that wld mean disappointing myself and a lot of other ppl. and seriously im starting to like hci a lot. and my class utterly and completely rocks. seriously... i hope 07s6b can remain as a class... hope no one leaves... names can be added to the list, but not taken away.

and since it is so hard to enter hci, it must be hard to leave as well.

right now i dun even know how to describe what i'm feeling. too much tension i guess. mind's blanking out...

PLS PLS PLS

2007-01-31T06:34:00.000-08:00

today i went for canoeing. i went on the t1. and the most amazing thing was that....

I DIDN'T CAPSIZE!!!!

ahaha

ok nvm random.

2007-01-29T05:11:00.000-08:00

DAMN IT I DONT THINK I CAN TAKE THE TENSION ANYMORE. NOW I HAVE NO IDEA AT ALL WHEN THE RESULTS ARE RELEASED (EITHER MON OR FRI). AND EITHER WAY I REALLY DONT WANT TO KNOW. YET THERE IS A PART OF ME THAT WANTS TO. DAMNIT IM IN THIS CONSTANT DILEMNA. EVERYDAY I TRY NOT TO THINK ABOUT IT. BUT THERE IS THIS CONSTANT BLACK CLOUD HANGING OVER, WHICH JUST SEEMS TO MAKE DAYS SLIGHTLY DULLER.

I REALLY REALLY FERVENTLY WANNA STAY IN HCI.

AND I REALLY HOPE I DO WELL. AT LEAST I HOPE I DIDNT SCREW UP TOO BADLY.

BUT OF COZ, SHLD MY RESULTS DICTATE THAT I MUST LEAVE (CHOY CHOY CHOY TOUCH WOOD), I WILL EXIT GRACEFULLY.

DAMN IT. TRYING TO THINK WITH AN OPEN MIND.

DAMN I MIGHT JUST BREAK DOWN SOON. CANNOT. MUST HOLD ON, COMPOSURE COMPOSURE COMPOSURE.

*KEEPS FINGERS CROSSED*

2007-01-28T08:48:00.000-08:00

lemme try uploading a picture.

this is a picture of my class. in hci.

2007-01-28T08:28:00.000-08:00

omg.

xu weilun died from a car accident.

oh my goodness. life is so fragile.

2007-01-27T06:41:00.000-08:00

SIGH I AM SO BORED. AND I KNOW, ALTHOUGH I HAVE LIKE TONS OF TUTORIALS TO COMPLETE (maybe not), IM STILL TERRIBLY BORED AND I COMPLETELY DO NOT FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING.

OHH on wed i went for canoe . and probably felt like the biggest loser ever. sigh sigh SIGH SIGH sigh. i went on a t1 and capsized like, 6 times. or more perhaps. i kinda lost count. my goodness it has to be the most maluating thing everrrr. im probably the lousiest canoeist everrr. so HORRIBLE. SIGH. im hoping for the day when im actually stable on a t1. (let's not start on ks yet sigh)

ok nvm....

shall talk abt happier stuff. I LOVE MY CLASS. 07S6B. seriously. it rocks... yay... i really feel glad to be in this class. seriously it is a wonderful class. ok i think im rambling. but nvm. blog is for self expression and mine happens to be slightly more unplanned.

oh and i heard stuff abt scgs. pls pls, sc, just remain the way u are. sc totally rocks.

random once again.

forget it. im bored to the extreme. seriously. i cant concentrate damnit.

2007-01-16T05:44:00.000-08:00

seriously, i'm starting to like hci now. really. it seems incredulous, but really, if i can stay in hci i definitely will.

it has been a strange experience.

my og rocks. OG2. despite having spent only abt 4 days with each other. hmm. og outing was fun. hope the coming one will be too. heh =)

my class rocks. 07S6B. the class is surprisingly quite close and bonded despite having only spent little time with each other. bonded in a weird way la. and the ppl there are nice. even the guys. *amazed* ok la, not really la, jkjk.

i hope i do well in os. i wanna stay in hci.

*fingers crossed*

2007-01-02T01:01:00.000-08:00

haha decided to add more things abt my taiwan trip since there are really too many things... so read the previous post first b4 reading this.

this post is filled with random stuff. it so happens to be streams of consciousness. whatever i think of, i write down.
heh.

we went to ximending. must say it's really damn cool. it's like many streets and junctions, and the shops there mostly sell stuff for youngsters. they do have some really cool stuff. lots of shoes, clothes, accessories on sale. i wanted to buy a nice sport shoe but it so happened that my brother yangyang bought a pair of basketball shoes. some o'school basketball shoe called air jordan retro 1 that is no longer available from other shops. and amazingly it costs only abt $170. u think that is expensive huh. that idiot buys more expensive shoes than that on a regular basis.

plus the weather was super cool (as in really cool). we ate some ahzhongmianxian which is damn nice. it's meesua and pig intestines. i like.

betel nuts. hmm.. that is definitely an acquired taste. u have to get used to it. we tried some of it and if i may say out of the 4 of us sitting at the back only i managed to actually chew it beyond that initial weird taste. the rest buay tahan. well it is quite weird la. u chew it first and there's this burst of flavour (i dunno how to describe) that most ppl cannot tahan, (u know tt sort of grimace) and yang totally couldnt last beyond i think 2 bites. heh. also the binlangmei dressed until so sexy leh.. wah... cannot believe it. taiwan men are very se4. serious.

lucky for us
the weather was great there when we went. apparently few days b4 there was a han liu, some cold spell. but luckily kami/kita tidak kena. =)
we encountered smooth traffic most of the time.
the peacocks at the kong que yuan actually spread out their beautiful feathers (quite rare)
we didnt get fined by the police at some night market for stopping the coach for abt half a minute.
when we went to some place (can't rmb where), the guards were changing shifts and they had this elaborate ritual. methinks it's to detect imposters. very good camera time. i was thinking of trying to make them laugh. i didnt try though.
there was rain on the last day of the trip but it was so light it hardly mattered.
we managed to see the 101 in its splendour before the new yr eve celebration. but sadly we had to fly back that day. i want to stay another day then can see the fireworks and the stars and singers there. i watched on tv when we got back.

one unlucky thing tho. on the flight back, there was turbulence all the way. we still managed to play cards though. =)

lalala.

2007-01-01T20:23:00.000-08:00

hey back home. not bad.

from 18 to 22 dec i went to malaysia. from 25 to 31 dec i went to taiwan.

short update on the trips.

malaysia.
we went to genting, penang, kl and malacca. stayed a night in genting, 2 in penang, a day in kl and on the way back passed by malacca. i went with a huge group comprising my family as well as extended family, 14 of us in total. =) damn fun. on the first day we made our way to genting, sitting in the coach for goodness-knows-how-long. my brother and i did not slp the night b4 (we had to go to that golden mile place at arnd 6 plus so we figured we didnt need to slp since we normally slpt at arnd 4 or 5) it was hard trying to stay awake seriously. to pass the time i watched my girl which till now i STILL haven't finished. how slow. haiz.

when we got to genting, it was completely foggy. methinks that there was a cloud on top of the mountain hence the extreme fog/mist/ whatever. it was so bad that at some points it was almost "shen shou bu jian wu zhi" if i got the expression correct. yup so obviously the outdoor themepark was closed and very sadly for us, we had to make do with the indoor one which is small, unexciting and complete with extremely long queues. at night, we went out to stand in the fog, the wind was strong, it was freezing cold, but it was very fun in a warped way. (luckily none of us caught a cold, but i kinda coughed the entire trip not so good but tt happened b4 e trip) then at 1 plus am, 8 of us (the youngsters) went to watch eragon in genting. well the tix were cheaper so we figured why not. well the movie's not bad but it's SO different from the book. the book is better def. after that we played tong xiao cards and took shifts slping. we conked out at abt 5 plus and had abt an hr to slp (morning call 6.30).

the rest of the days in malaysia. i can't exactly rmb well coz they mostly comprised of going to various temples. and we don't believe in the faiths, i'm freethinker really. and we saw a huge statue of guan yin. almost a pilgrimage man. and the very wonderful thing was that ALL the temples we went to involved climbing steps, so we had to climb... quite tiring.

we saw lots of caves too and most caves were temples. limestone caves, stalactites and stalagmites (did i spell correctly). was quite happy to see them (geog student mah) but it sadly kinda reminded me of the os.

the days kinda passed in a whirl. i mostly remember being in the coach.

and in case any of u wanted to know whether i was caught in the flood, i wasnt, luckily. still extremely alive ok.

now for taiwan. i cannot possibly blog on all of them cos the trip was really long and interesting. and the days passed so fast that i simply cannot organise them into meaningful chunks. it's all in a blur, still reveling in the experience. i loveddd the trip.

for many reasons. i always wanted to go to taiwan to meet all the ou xiangs in the ou xiang ju. well obviously i am not so lucky so as to meet or even catch a teeny glimpse of them. but nvm breathing the same air helps. =) and the weather there was GREAT, just slightly cold and lovely and quite unlike the sweltering heat of the singaporean weather we all are used to. (r u guys feeling jealous). lucky for us in the tour, we didnt encounter any rain or bad weather and it wasnt bone-chillingly cold either.

we didnt kena the earthquake either. it happened in the southern part and we happened to be at hualien if i'm not wrong then. nothing happened to us. we're perfectly safe. oh man so extremely lucky. (my family escaped 2 disasters)

ok ignore all the unfortunate things. the trip was greatt. seriously. we went around the island. saw alot of shan shui. mountain and water. it was great after all that living in the concrete jungle. taiwan faces pacific ocean on one side so the waves are very strong. lots of cliffs, erosional features. we also saw this beach filled with shingle (not sand) and the waves were so damn strong. maybe not really, but those used to seeing the lil waves lapping at east coast will find it damn strong. i think u can be swept away if u tried standing there. but it was sooo beautiful. really. i cannot even begin to describe.

saw alot of temples there too. not bad la.

encountered loads of brainwashing too. esp when getting us to buy stuff. hmmm. one wonders if they are really so effective. (ESP FOR THE PIQIU can) (dunno how to spell) i refuse to believe that buying smthg like tt can better ur life, or that ur name decides ur life. it doesnt just work like that right. if only so then everyone will be rich and wealthy and very happy!

on one of the days (i think friday) we went to jiu zhu wen hua chun, some aboriginal cultural village. haiz, interested though i am in the aboriginal cultures, i found the village rather boring. the performance was not bad. it showcased the ami and atayal tribes. not bad la. but the village itself was rather, if i may say so, superficial. BUT there were rides there. super fun and with absolutely no queues at all! shiok man. i esp liked the roller coaster and the ufo thingy. (the suicide preparation) damn fun. SOME ppl chickened out of the UFO ride if i rmb correctly at the very last minute =D. hehheh. obviously afraid of heights if i may say, But who isnt? =) once again. hahaha. ok nvm. yeaa. it was just damn fun... but the ufo ride IS slightly scary la. every second on the thing i think to myself: what if the safety thing is wonky? but it wasnt otherwise i wouldnt be here.

went to night markets as well. taiwan really takes the night markets seriously. not just any old pasar malam ok. those ppl there sell expensive jeans, bags, wallets as well ok! managed to get stuff there =) not bad. oh, and the much hyped about street snacks, i personally find ntg too wonderful abt them, seriously. the only thing i really like is the chou dou fu. (haha) I LOVE IT. almost every day on the trip we were eating that la. they are addictive. the rest like oyster omelette, oyster meesua, what da chang bao xiao chang... were all so-so onlyl. (maybe u need to develop a certain taste for it). i liked the di gua as well (well, im a sweet potato fan) but i sorta like the orange ones in singapore better than the yellow/purple ones there.

we are a very LUCKY tour group.

realised something there as well. the best icebreakers are card games. coz really, u can't not talk when u play games right. so a few of us sitting at the back of the coach started playing daidi and bridge and after that started talking as well. and taadaa, ice broken. according to the tour guide, she said that we were a very weird grp coz we werent talking to each other even after a few days. heh. anti-social... ahaha no la. but after a while, it became better la. oh, and the second best ice breaker is eating at the same table. =) u start talking after a while. so yupp. can say i made some friends during this trip which is itself an amazement. like reallyyy. hopefully it lasts beyond one week of the trip. heh im kidding la.

okk. so now sch is reopening soon and im kinda sadd yet excited at the same time. so hwachong here i come. yeaa.. and ppl, don't forget me.

this isnt exactly a short post....

happy orientation ppl. =)

=)

2006-12-09T05:20:00.000-08:00

many things have happened.

prom. that was cool seeing everyone dressed up to the nines, with makeup, pretty dresses and big hairdos. everyone looked so beautiful. but it was rather boring la. the before and after were more fun. before: dressing up. after: in traders hotel with a bunch of other ppl like ellen, bin, yk, minky, christabel, steffi. very funny. want more? go look at almost every other person's blog.

ellen leaving for australia. sad =( now i have such difficulties getting ppl to go out with me when im bored (n vice versa too, im not tt bad). and the journey to the airport, i will not elaborate. fraught with dangers and excitement. oknvm.

watching iswak. im officially in love with the entire show. and zhengyuanchang/ joe cheng. jiang zhi shu in the show is super duper nice, with an IQ of 200, handsome, tall and good in every single thing. perfect. but these types of guys do not exist, very sadly enough. zhengyuanchang is so good looking. ahhhh officially going crazy. he has crooked teeth though, but it's kinda cute in a way. =) and and and he's 188 cm. not tt tall la. REALLY. ok im sorta kidding. he is really niang it's funny (watched him on all the videos, damn funny) and the way they keep linking him with mike he... (damn funny). he's so vain and narcissistic.

a guy like that. *faints* (in both a good and bad way)

nvm still crazy. i love iswak, very patiently waiting for the sequel.

=) DUN MIND ME.

2006-11-21T21:38:00.000-08:00

first things first, OS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes i do know it is a little late. but recently i have been so BUSY that it is near impossible to update my rather dead blog. yes, yes , yes busy. busy with shopping, slacking, going out w friends, reading and having fun. and lazy me just cannot be bothered to update. till today.

it seems WEIRD now that os are over. thus far in my life, i have done nothing much except for studying. and the years of studying build up, each year of work builds up so that it culmulates into one major exam, the ordinary level. (and yes i do realise that in a short 2 yrs from now, i have to take As HAIZ)

so anyway i just made my jc choices. and it's probably similar to u, u, u and u.
all with HCI as the first choice RIGHT. ahh great. will have lots of friends when i go there so that i wont be in a completely new environment. =) the way i speak it, it's as if i got in already.

but im quite sure i can. for the PAE.

i hope i do well for os too. personally didnt find it too difficult, but there can be screw ups everywhere. *keeps fingers crossed*

i am very very scared. scared that all my dreams will be crushed by this stupid examination.

NOPE. it won't be this way.

LALALA going out with friends later.

2006-10-06T09:47:00.000-07:00

suddenly decided to blog again, partly due to my blog-hopping just now. well, my blog is dead and always has been. i'm wondering now whether i shld add a tag board. this blog was meant to be a secret blog for me to lambast and lament about everything under the sun, which in my lil narrow world, mostly consist of school and random stuff. but as the blog title suggests, i am somewhat of a slight narcissus and i couldnt resist telling some of my friends the address, and so now i think a few of them know about my blog already. there's nothing in here of interest or notice really, and nothing especially to incriminate me. well, so the important thing is, should i have a tagboard? or maybe i shouldn't, so that nobody needs to comment on my posts which are all generally crappy and no-standard =)

first thing first, my results. i am quite pleased with them, and yes, i think many people now yearn to take something heavy and whack my head, or box me, or hamtam me, or cause some physical harm to me because i did quite well! yes. seriously i did not expect to do this well. perhaps it's my expectations. say chem, if i did as well as what i thought was ok, i probably would have gotten say a 90 or so. i got about 82 i believe. so anyway, i still need to work hard of course. i cannot be complacent, what with a partner who does every single worksheet and paper that is given out. like, waddaheck lor. yy, are u reading this? =) u totally do not need to do any more maths lor. i bet u anyhow do also can comfortably get an 80 plus. =) haiz.

i need to work for chinese. but i have given up all hope. it will be the only blemish in my otherwise almost perfect o level score. i can predict the future. (well, i hope so)

so yea. these few days we are shrouded in well, haze. ahaha. the haze is quite bad really. i can smell the acrid smell, that somewhat burning smell and the carbon in the smoke. the haze in singapore, dare i say, somehow lends a slightly poetic and whimsical touch to our somehow too concrete island. that slightly foggy feel, that slight feeling of uncertainty, the lack of absolute clarity all make the place seem dreamlike and ethereal. i especially like how the streetlamps look in the haze. the light spreads out a little like fine mists floating in the sky, the shade of gold, glittery and bright.

well, beautiful as it is, i think im gonna kena asthma attack soon. i'd better be careful.

another point. today is zhong qiu jie. i sorta celebrated it by looking at the moon for a while. it's white, round and lovely, although a bit hazy (ahaha). we also ate mooncakes. we tried some from different brands and the conclusion is they all taste the same.

now as i'm typing this, i'm sitting near the open window, the wind blows in gently, bringing with it... haze. *gasps for air*

2006-09-09T09:26:00.000-07:00

thought i might just squeeze in a little post before the start of school.

ahahaha. prelims. *smilerp* ahaha

ok.

i am studying of course, trying desperately to cram in lil bits of information which i highly suspect will have no bearing on my life at all. i mean, will all these impact me at all: how a meander is formed, how a stump is formed, how earthquakes or volcanoes come abt, how indian women are portrayed in narayan's text, dy over dx, how alkanol and alkanoic acid react to become esters? do i really need to know all these save for writing the answers out wholesale during exams?

i don't really think so.

but i suppose information like this helps to shape the mind, sharpen it, make it more developed... yeahyeah of course. or else we'll be stupid creatures. that'll be rather sad.

ok now i have something.

the new way to teach lil kids the alphabet

a for ass
c for czar
e for entertainment
g for gnash
h for hour/honour
i for idiot
k for knife/knuckle
p for phone/pneumonia
q for quay
s for sea
t for tzar
x for xenophobic

*u have to say it out =)

cool huh. poor little kids.

2006-09-02T10:11:00.000-07:00

heh havent blogged in the longest while.
haha.

let's c. first thing first, how can USA lose to GREECE in bball? i mean, it's e US, with all the NBA powerhouses and big names, and they still can lose!? what the...
haha. but yea, greece is good. =) although i didnt watch e game, but apparently, they scored many, many 3 pointers. (accurate sia)

ok. now i shall blog abt e teacher's day celebrations.
it was be yourself day. i wore my PURPLE mickey mouse shirt n denim bermudas (heh) and because tt 4sy wanted ppl to wear a tie (for goodness knows what reason), i wore a cute tiny tie belonging to my brother when he was young. u noe, those type of small ties that come with an elastic band and reach to about half of your torso. yupp. basically byd was quite boring in sc. there weren't many strange costumes or get-ups. perhaps you can consider vicki's clothes weird. well many ppl stared and gave her strange looks. but she's up to her usual punk-gothic-jappy-wadeva look. and i find it actually, rather tame.

ACES day was boring. the song was kung fu fighting! (haha)
but the dance/exerciseregime was rather boring. most of the classes did the same things, and to top it off, they were all rather messy. so we just watched and had a lil bit of fun at the gallery of the hall. i rather wanted to sleep for a large part of the aces day thingy, but i decided against it. (the floor wasnt exactly clean u c)

CONCERT:
boringly long. it would have been brilliant had they cut the concert to say, 1 n half hours. surprisingly, this time there were a lot of hip hop dancing. but its good. and some of the sec 2s are great. really quite cool man, those moves. ahahha, i wanna learn. but i've got the body and juz about as much grace as a robot. =) some of the performances were quite cool. i liked the tap dance. (that girl, whatever her name is, is v good.) hehe. and some other forgettable stuff. nvm. then there was this v funny game where prefects tested teachers on aspects of the school. tsk tsk, the teachers do not know the school AT ALL. tsktsk, and guess who the highest scorer who passed w one mark was: mr jeow, who isnt like ex sc or smthg. it was rather funny to see them being tested with the weirdest things imaginable like what's the chi name for pirates of the carribean. and more. but it was fun lah.

GIVING STUFF TO TEACHERS:
boy, this is so damn hard. i had to make 2 trips to the staff room, which was so packed with students and ex-students that i swear one could suffocate in there. and i had to squeeze past the huge crowd of ppl who were haphazardly lined and queueing up to meet so-n-so teacher and jostle my way thru. seriously. it is an amazing achievement. upon reaching my destination (which is the part of e staff room which is btwn e pigeonhole and the teachers' desks), i then had to yell at the top of my voice "MRS LEE" and "MR JOHARI". i do know that it's rather rude or whatever, but it is certainly the fastest, easiest and most efficient way one can deliver a present to a teacher concerned.

stuff for teachers
lao shi and mrs neoh: card, cushion, chocs and candles (all cs!)
ms beh, mrs lee and mrs logan: card and cute soft toy rose
mr johari: card, black book and mug
cikgu: card

HAIZ.

i swear nv, nv to go through so much trouble.

or at the very least, bring everything to the staff room so as to present everything to the teachers at one shot. i'll rmb tt nxt yr after i leave sc and come back to visit the teachers. oh man, this is my LAST YEAR HERE. boohoohoo.

woo hoo

long post!

2006-08-09T03:00:00.000-07:00

i must say i had quite some fun reading vicki's and prata's post abt all the weird events tt happened during their indian dance practices.

all the sagas, misunderstandings and funny, insensitive (separately) incidents.

and what struck me was that they appeared to be arguing about nothing at all. perhaps it's e saga, the incidents that happened (of which im not very sure, as i'm not in this practice) which all resulted and perhaps, catalysed the huge argument that they are having right now. it's really quite funny.

all they're arguing about is how immature and childish the other person is, not realising that both of them are acting exactly what they claim to despise in the other person. and the best thing is, the argument keeps going back and forth, those type of i-hate-you, i-hate-you-more type of arguments which never stop unless someone makes peace.

which means i will have some entertainment for a while.

(i know i shouldn't be commenting at all. let's hope i will not have to regret this badly.)

2006-08-04T07:06:00.000-07:00

today we had the sec 4 farewell for science club.

and there are only 2 sec 4s. hahaa.

it was really fun, i must say. =) super. duper. fun. and funny.

sitting at gallery 3 around a huge pile of food (which they all v kindly dumped to me when everything was over hmph).
roasting, or rather, burning and reducing, marshmallows.
eating all sorts of food. potato chips dipped in choc sauce.
eating the noodle thing.
evelyn n others melting chocs over the portable bunsen burner (ingenious rite, we are after all SCientists!!)
cleaning up the gallery. juniors made seniors clean. HOW CLD THEY?
taking all the stupid photos. AHEM, they are not going ANYWHERE.
singing all the time in science club.
dancing to the tune of BEAUTY AND THE BEAST.
slacking.
eating pizza. (i ate 3 slices, not bad huh. and that was all after the tidbits)
discussing all sorts of stuff.
juniors who torment and torture seniors, AHEM.
juniors who think i am a guy/gay.
juniors who think i have a boyfren. which i dun, sadly =)
juniors who are the most irritating, the funniest, the bestest.
juniors who are les.

AHHHHH.

that just makes for pretty much fun.

thanks for the great farewell, guys. i was really touched! awwww...

thanks for the great gift, the cute lil penguin which is extremely pokable!!!!!!!

yo.

sad that i have to leave after this year.

ALL THE BEST EVERYONE.

we will be BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=)

ps. we'll miss YOU GUYS!!!!!!!

2006-08-01T09:32:00.000-07:00

EXCELLENT. i decided that i'll have a blog again. technically, i have another one somewhere out there, but it's rather eh, dead. ahaha, so yea. here's a new one, which i MIGHT update regularly. and i get this done on my birthday. excellent excellent excellent.

sch's being v normal. i know i'm taking my os soon, and i intend to do well enough to get into any jc in singapore. but strangely, i feel so unprepared. but, i know, it will go away soon, when i mug like crazy until i go crazy as well.

studying is ok lar. it's perfectly fine.

man. some very melodramatic things have been going on and i find it extremely amusing.

what i have to the bunch of guys involved is that: just because a few guys and gals get together to collaborate on something, doesn't mean that there shld be so much things going on. what happened to good ol' friendship?

2006-05-23T03:53:00.000-07:00

i kinda like this well, poem, i wrote when i was bored. haha. it's kinda weird.

poor of mind and soul

I dream of a time when I'll be famous and rich
When everyone knows my name
And clamours over me.
When they fuss over me
And give me the best everything.
When I'll wear the most expensive dresses and jewellery
Which cost about as much as
A year's supply of ten families' meals.

Of a time when I'll be so famous
That wherever I turn, people will stare
At the wonder, the glamour, the magnificence
That is me.
When I'll be featured on every paper,
Magazine, Book, Television, Radio.
When my fat paycheck will come each time I
Smile for the cameras looming overhead
And strike a lil pose for the millions of people
Who wanna get a slice of me but cannot

Be so freaking rich that I'll be able to
Feed an entire nation.
And wear diamonds, pearls, rubies, sapphires
And all stones really.

Be so famous I'll attend every award ceremony
Sitting in the front row, wearing an extravagant,
Big, puffy gown that can fit two,
That comes from the biggest names
And is the only one in the entire world.
And sit there and yawn to the camera
And get away with it.
Where I'll hear the names of the award winners
Drone on and on. And I'll clap politely.

Be so famous everyone will look and stare.
I'll wear the most elaborate, ornate dresses ever
And steal, make that rob, the limelight from every other person
Standing within a ten metre radius.
And make them look in awe,
Worship and idolise me.

Those fools who know nothing and gape and
Faint and do all sorts of silly things.

2006-05-23T03:46:00.000-07:00

haha. i have a new blog. as for the i, u need not know who I am, because this blog will be entirely anonymous. ENTIRELY.

and no one will know who (I) is.

hidden.