OMG ahhahahah. i'm finally updating after a long long while. while previous posts reflect the stress and pressures of jc life, this post will be completely different. cos yes, i am done. DONE with my A levels (well about half a month ago, time really seems to fly). DONE with uniformed education, whether that makes sense or not.

so now i am terribly free! and i'm so glad i finally get to unleash the nocturnal creature buried in me for so long, for now i am enjoying long nights and only awaking when the sky is at least overhead. yes. this is my natural lifestyle. i think i operate on a different timezone. but the night beckons. alas my nights are not spent partying or doing anything cool like that, instead they are spent huddled in front of a laptop/book. ah, but that is ideal.

alright. i ought to be in thailand the past few days but due to the protests at the thai airport, all flights are cancelled. thank goodness the smtown concert is postponed otherwise i will be fuming mad in singapore while the concert proceeds in thailand. nvm. i will go when the concert is on. yup.

prom is in a few days. hmm.

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6:36 AM;

well well well. so many things have happened.

FIRST THINGS FIRST, i am finally 18! whether that is a good thing or not remains to be seen. i have always envisioned eighteen as the "epitome-of-cool" age, where things will be fine and dandy, where i'll be partying away and having lotsa fun, wandering about various places, having the time of my life. but sadly, i now find myself mugging my life away. AHAHAH. but still, i am of the grand old age of EIGHTEEN now, officially from the 2nd of august. i feel old. time is slipping away fast. i must do a lot of things, things that can be done only when u have the excuse of youth and immaturity. and FAST.

then we have our national day. didn't watch the parade this year so i don't have much idea. refused to watch the tv broadcast too. but yes. wishing the nation a happy 43rd birthday! and may you always be prosperous and peaceful and may people here lead happy lives!

of course, we have the most important event this year, and that is none other than the BEIJING OLYMPICS 2008! the opening ceremony is the most amazing spectacle i have ever seen (not that i've seen a lot of course). china really pulled all stops, making everything so absolutely elaborate and stunning and grand and even more. AMAZINGGGG. the performances. the calligraphy piece OMG OMG OMG. the globe part, JAW DROPPING... and the best part, the lighting of the torch... first the relay and then Chinese athlete Li Ning ran suspended in mid air around the whole stadium carrying the torch, then finally reaching the gigantic torch and lighting it. too spectacular.

sad to say, i havent really followed the games closely since the opening ceremony. HAHA. congrats to Tao Li, omg she's amazing!

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8:41 AM;

suddenly felt like updating again. i thought my blog hadn't been touched for a while but i was quite surprised i posted about 2 weeks ago! ahaha.

anyway i think quite a lot of things have happened of late. right now we're mugging. i haven't really intensified yet but i will soon.

and prom stuff have to be settled soon. it's barely august and already they want the money in... prom's gonna be at ritz carlton, and yup, it is rather ex at 98 bucks. and i hope a large proportion of the class go, since that's largely what prom is about right? camwhoring with the peeps. =)

and i can't believe i'm so crazy. seriously i should get my brain checked, but yeah, thailand and the sm town concert beckons me. like dongbangshinki and superjunior! like OMG. ahaha.

i think this is the time when all of us feel more weird.. somehow i feel that there are so many things i have to take care of like all the stupid personal statements, uni apps (soon), prelims and the A levels, and all of a sudden i'm so unsure of where i shld be going, where i'm headed. of course the prospect of going overseas to study beckons me greatly, so invitingly, almost as if it's a carrot on a string (just for the tiny lil fact that i don't like carrots hahaha). i can feel it in my veins. and i want to go... i want to get away from here (not that i don't like it here) but i want to go out and explore the world. cliche and stupid i know, but this place is too small and microscopic and too familiar, i wanna just get away and go to some strange foreign land where i'll feel like an outsider looking in and visiting. i want to experience new things. i know this is terribly idealistic and is probably not going to happen and i'm probably too romantic and dreamy for my own good. then i start getting worried once again, cos there's no way the good universities in the world will accept me, when there are so many out there with better results and portfolios. and my dream is about to get crushed...

i want to be a traveller, a voyager, a nomad, a liu lang ze. but i don't think i have the courage to. but i can imagine though.

BACK TO EARTH.

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9:20 AM;

omg it's over i can't believe it.. over in a flash. the past four days seemed so frantically fast to me, like part of something too good, and good things always slip by in seconds... gosh i know i will miss everything so so much, even as i couldn't stand some of the trainings, even as i was down or sad sometimes. the team mates especially, it's probably different now that we are gonna be meeting more in the reading room than meeting at macritchie (which is probably our favourite reservoir in the world.) post comps is over, we've had a fantastically good time at outback steakhouse and at the marina mandarin hotel (THANK YOU HAOXIA!) playing and camwhoring and for some, being drunk (haha)...
and now i guess life is probably back to normal, except for the lack of training.

love u hcanoe 0708.

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6:00 AM;

had SATs yesterday. it was quite a new and fun experience. there were soo many people at cjc where i took the test, it was rather amazing because there were so many types.. like from all walks of life (exaggerating here ahaha). anyway i dunno what time the test was supposed to start, but we all had to be there at 745. we waited for a good loong time before the test actually started at 9 plus. like, wth. after that it was just four hours of intensive thinking and doing the test. i found the test surprisingly manageable, considering i did my first practice at 10 plus pm the friday night before. the test was so fun, basically cos after doing like the fifth passage based thing, you're kinda tickled. the test was not hard, but i felt just a teensy bit pressed for time. anyway, now i can't wait for the results!

after that, we had training! so sweet right. SATs ended at a freaking late time of 1.30 of so i had less than hr to go home and then to macr. during that limited time, i somehow managed to grab some muesli bar and a bun and that kinda staved off the hunger for a while.

hx is leaving for (isit south africa?) some far flung place yet again! leaving us to fend for ourselves again. nah i kid, this time it's only for a few weeks.

rawr nationals....




i'll try to upload the stj pics asap. no guarantee though. hahaha

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7:45 AM;

i just bought meself a pair of PURPLE running shoes!!

when i see the colour purple (not the book haha) my mood always lightens and i will feel happy and contented for a few moments.

i think i'm crazy sometimes. HAHAHA.





note to self: MUST WATCH MOVIE.

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6:32 AM;

some days i feel like killing and tearing things and swearing nonstop and today is one of them. the bloody hw is killing me. and i feel like killing it. and everything sucks now. and the stupid bloody sore throat and stuffed nose is not at all helping.

gnd.

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8:47 AM;