hm i feel inspired to blog. ahhaa ok whatever.

ncc on sat and sun. i went only on sat and decided not to go on sat cos i was tired. sorry ppl.

(seriously VERY tired on sat) i kinda slept at arnd 2am for the past week so by the time sat came i was in a zombie like state. seriously whatever opportunity i had, even if it was only for a few mins, i closed my eyes. if only i were this efficient when it came to schwork it wld be great.

sat. had a 10k race on k2 with xinhui. well, we came in last out of 12. it was kinda expected since we were supposed to go there to have fun and treat it as a training session. we didnt cap! considering this is my 3rd or 4th time on a k2, it's not too bad yea. =P i realised k2 is vastly different from t1 and to a certain extent as well, k1. cos im the backman, and that's really different from being a singles paddler. (well i guess if ure the frontman it shld be arnd the same) i also realised that coordinating is not easy, and that paddling as a backman, all i had to concentrate on was xinhui's strokes and try to follow properly. and the view of someone in front of u instead of a 'vast' expanse of water is rather different as well. some times i slipped and cldnt really match her frequency (sorry..) but i shld think most of the time it was ok. the boat tilted a lil here and there, mostly to the right though, but we were mostly in no danger of capping. i didnt really slap water often, mostly because it was rather stable. having been paddling t1 for a long time, im not really used to slapping water yet, but lucky this action comes automatically most of the time. oh yea, and halfway during the race it started to rain, and as suddenly as it began, it stopped after a while. overall the race was rather fun in a weird way, and it was over in about an hour. (slightly over)


during the past few days i also had the opportunity to try k1. it is a very different experience yet in some ways it's rather similar to being on a t1. k1 is just more unstable. much more. esp with a high seat. i had the opportunity to try both high seat and low seat for k1. and i must say there is really a lot of difference between them. i can't say for others but to me, high seat was so much more unstable. i nv knew there were high seats and low seats before this, much less know that there was such a big diff between them. who wld have thought that a FEW cm of elevation wld make such a diff. man, for now, the high seat sucks. i keep capping so much. at the pontoon, while getting into boat, CAP. paddle a few strokes, CAP. trying to maneouver out of the mud and rocks, CAP. in the middle of lagoon, CAP. trying to stop boat, cap. in short, just kept capping, and many times i capped over rocks and got some cuts and bruises. actually it's not so much a lot more unstable, but the capping is a lot more unpredictable. like when i'm thinking that i'm able to go for a lil more, then i'll just cap. at least for a low seat and a lower cg, it's NOT too bad, but i still cap. capping is quite fun actually, just that it's really ma fan. have to do so many things. hmm. to think that until now i still have a certain fear of the water. like of drowning. im almost a non swimmer. but in a way i like being in the water.

oh, and having a rudder rocks. to think when others cld have it so easy when it came to changing direction, i had to keep sweeping, sweeping, sweeping. oh well, but shifting the tiller is rather hard on the feet. (i used to think the stick thing was called the rudder but i guess the rudder is the thing in the water.) and now changing the direction is easier. so that's great.

man i really hope i get to train on k. but if i have to go back to a t (although im not tt fast la sad) well that will be nice as well.

haha. this is a long post. i realise quite a lot of posts in my blog (which does not have many posts) are dedicated to canoe. sigh. my life is becoming so weird and mundane. other than usual sch stuff it's always canoe. other than mugging, it's canoeing. and vice versa. while i used to be SOOO free during sec sch and cld go out whenever anyone asked, now it's like, are u free? im like nooo, got training. kinda sad. but it's worth it. =P

(and yes, im glad i didnt get into council)

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9:21 AM;

suddenly felt like resurrecting my blog. it's been soo long since i last updated. looking back at my entries, and some of them were about council stuff, i wonder why i even debated whether to stay in canoe. if u ask me this question now, it would undoubtably be a YES, a resounding YES.

the past few days happened very quickly and i'm kinda overwhelmed by it.

there was nationals. WE GOT SECOND. TEAM SILVER. HCANOE <3. IM SO DAMN PROUD OF US! WE DID IT!!!!!!!

for me, this nationals wasnt a good experience, but i learnt a very important thing. i got third in my heat (ok i know it isnt very good) but it wld have gained me a place in the semis, if not for one thing. i got disqualified. what a damn anticlimax. i cut lanes or something, or at least got very close to the next lane. and that's why i got disqualified. yes. at any rate i will NEVER repeat this mistake ever. i think i forgot what everyone said about staying in the centre of the lane. i tried though, very hard. the winds were blowing like crazy and my boat kept drifting. almost half of the 1k i kept sweeping. like crazy. it was so damn hard. my timing and performance is probably the worse in a very long time. i cld feel it. it was so damn hard to control everything. i cldnt even zham properly, because if i did, i know i would definitely obviously cut lane. my rating was low, seriously, and i tried to put in power to compensate for it. but what the hell, in the end, the only thing i cld see in the scoresheet was a big DQ next to my name.

it's ok tho. im ok already, no longer upset or angsty. dont worry, i will keep trying my very best and train hard, and nv repeat this mistake again. i dunno why though, but when ppl knew of my disqualification, they always invariably told me not to be sad coz i still have a next year. i wonder why, but ok yes i still do have another year. (and thank gdness for that) the thing is, i only have a precious TWO years to compete, and im not gonna waste it man. ahhhaa.

hahaa ok. the 3 days in bedok. wow. i tell u, watching teammates paddle in their races was a nervewrecking experience. even though i wasnt the one paddling, i cld feel the kind of tension, that kind of excitement, nervousness. as i watched each race, i cld feel that kind of yearning, yearning for everyone to do well, to put in their best, to give their all, to achieve some kind of result. we cheered until we were all hoarse. cheering with heart, with passion. for hcanoe.

during the finals day, it was super nervewrecking. ahahah sophia shld know. (hahha, damn scary that one, but it turned out ok luckily). some of us had no races so we helped out the rest. and we kept counting the points. each and every race was so damn important to us, each and every single point mattered. we kept counting, not only for us, but also for other schs, to see whether we cld have a fighting chance for the placing we wanted.

and yes. we did. we did it.

omg.

now nationals are over. there's still ncc. i hope i can paddle well. hmm if it goes well, i might paddle a k2, which is kinda like the first time i'm gg to paddle a doubles. ohwell i tried once before, for abt a few mins, i guess that doesnt really count for much ahahaha. hmm hope i can do it. oh well, IM GOING TO DO IT. no use hoping.

ok entry seems uber long already. post comps i shall update another time. if i even do.

till then. bye.

<3

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