this is crazy. there's barely a measly three weeks to the start of the promos and time is such a limited resource. to ingest thick stacks of notes for every single subject all with the aim of spewing them out for promos just seems kinda dumb to me. but i guess, this i what we are here for (at least for this period of our lives) yes. to mug. which i (sadly but expectedly) have not started at all. seriously we should have a holiday. not holiday-holiday, but a time where we do not have to attend school so that i can plonk myself in a library/reading room and camp there for extended hours so as to cram all the stupid notes into my brain. and why not. at least for blocks we had the june hols and that hols was a reminder, a sign for us to start mugging. and with training intensifying during the jun hols, it also awakened the part of me so often unaroused to start studying.
i wonder why people call studying mugging. isnt mugging like robbing someone at knifepoint (alrite not too sure abt this).
studying sucks. im currently stuck, in the sense that i do not even know where to begin. casting my eye upon my piles of notes all arranged ever-so-neatly in an order that no one can ever comprehend, i am stuck, i know not where to commence. should i do chem first, since that is sort of a favourite subject of mine, despite my doing badly for it. i feel that chem is a subject which i MAY be able to do well in, at least there is a faint glimmer of hope of it. for the rest, they are all goners. physics. sigh.. luckily the topics of late have not been too confusing, and my limited understanding mostly helped by mr chua since my lecture and tutorial times in sch are spent in ways not considered to be helpful to my understanding of the subject. math.. the latest lecture test fully shows up my inadequacies in math. when i thought i could finally make a teeny bit of sense of differentiation and integration, and bam, this test comes and takes away every lil bit of confidence i have in my already lousy ability to do math. im very very worried about math more so than i can ever emphasize. ive never been good in math seriously. i take a hell of a long time to work out simple problems, i make too many careless mistakes for my own good, i read questions wrongly, i apply the wrong formulas etc. and my understanding and knowledge of the gc is so limited i only know how to plot the most basic of curves. econs. *shivers* the horrors of it. and it's not as if it's not manageable. econs is weird, you can think you did relatively well for something when its actually a pile of crap. and the time given to write essays is so short that it leaves almost no time for thought. it's like, u read the qn and u start writing, immediately. and if u forget anything, gdbye to u. (which i did for one part of pd) i dunno what to make of econs. there are a freaking number of topics for any of which an essay qn can based on. which shld i study. and i have to start memorising all curves and graphs as well as their explanations. and i cannot afford to make any mistake. SIGH. econs. u suck.
omg. without realising, this page is already filled with so many ramblings and crap. ohwell. i guess i had too many things to say but nv had the chance to. and today i decide to finally update my very stagnant blog, and for the first time in a long while, it's not about canoe. ahahah. but abt something worse.
promos. be over soon. and pls may i get through it safely, and be able to emerge from it with a faint glimmer of a smile and a feeling of satisfaction that i know i did ok.
(i dont think that's gonna happen)
after the promos, i am going to do so many things i've wanted to do for so long. includes cycling, rollerblading (regular after exam activities), go watch like a million movies. (ive been to the cinema perhaps thrice this year, wow), go shopping (greed and materialism tell me that my wardrobe needs an update), go online (which i already do, but for not so desirable reasons like pw), meet up with friends (esp sc ppl) and last but not least READ (im going to procure all the books ive always wanted to read! yay!)
point to note. i realise im kinda getting dependent on the usual spell checks available nowadays. it seems that i know not the exact spelling of the word, but the erm, form of it, and i try out various spellings in order to get rid of the red squiggly line.
HAHA.
WHEE LONG POST. so fun.
