TOO BEAUTIFUL FOR WORDS

Friday, March 28, 2008

in my haste to write about sadder stuff ie. blocks and its results, i realised i have forgotten to write about stuff that is so much happier.

on wed, we had another TEAM OUTING. and once again, we had FULL attendance. YEAH MAN. we totally rock. after training (which ended before 12!) we headed to ps for lunch at pastamania (ok not so amazing) after which we went to the adidas shop at cathay to look for the team bag. the choice was between two bags with the bag we have now easily winning the most votes. HAHA. so we bought this really nice bag (the only grouse is that the handle thingy is too small) as our team bag. =) the store at cathay only had four bags, so we had to go to heeren and suntec to get the rest. so that was a day of plenty of bus rides and money. alright no link.

the adidas at cathay had this table soccer game. SO FUN. ahahah. apparently some team member shows remarkable ability to shoot the ball in unfailingly, of which i was unable to defend against for a consecutive number of times. since we were playing a knock out game, they managed to keep playing. talent man! HAHA.

(i am utterly amazed by how task oriented some teammates can be. we got the bag in heeren and immediately left. wow. if it were up to me, i'll probably walk around, shop a little before going off.)

anyways at suntec we hung around a little after buying the bags to shop for cute accessories and keychains to hang on our bag to differentiate. i feel we wreck havoc on any shop we step into. having walked around for a loong time to no avail, we finally chanced upon a shop (which i never knew existed, i think it's new) where they sold really cute bear hp straps. there were stuff that looked like mario, astroboy and even homer!

so kewl.

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9:10 AM;

sometimes i feel horribly dumb. i believe that i am capable of doing much better, just that right now, the results aren't showing. and now i'm in a terrible dilemma... to quit or not to quit, that is the question. i totally feel like just forsaking it all, just throwing the burden away, but something holds me back a little, the nagging feeling that no way, i am not gonna just quit so easily, i'm gonna prove that i can do better.

still the liberation would be tremendous.

no more tearing of hair, cussing, cursing and swearing while doing work. (still there's always math.)
and a tuesday and friday off.

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8:56 AM;

Monday, March 24, 2008

WHEE blocks are OVER!!! like, finally.
(although from thurs to sun i was effectively already in a holiday mood)

physics paper was surprisingly not too bad. to think i heard all the comments about it being worse than chem and math. but paper 1 was quite bad IMO. for most part of it i was guessing and i think i guessed wrongly. but oh well, IT IS OVER. =)

this week looks to be rather good. no school tomorrow for me, cos i don't take bio or cll (haha) and no sch on wed too, cos it's a holiday granted to us due to good a level results. so i'm going to make very good use of these two days to slack. I WANT TO WATCH A MOVIE. this has been my much oft lament. i want to, but i have no idea what to watch. and i do not have time! so much training. sigh. then a competition on sat and sun. busy week. thursday and friday look ill-placed. i should totally just skip school (haha), i don't think i can face the reality of going back to lessons and tutorials. SIGH.

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7:41 AM;

Thursday, March 20, 2008

after blocks i shall go shop for books because i have a $20 kino voucher! woohoo, thanks mortal! i am not very sure what to buy though, but i most probably will not get a mystery book although it's my favourite genre. mystery books most of the time only bear one reading, to me at least. i am those types who only like to read/watch stuff once, unless it's really nice and i really really like it. so perhaps i shall go for something much more frivolous and fun, maybe a YOUNG ADULT book 'twilight' by stephanie meyer based on recommendation by yengyie and ellen. and if i have money left over i might go for something along the lines of naxiaozizhenshuai, which is yet more fluffy and brainless. another one of my guilty pleasures. sigh. but i really really love the book even if it's in CHINESE translated from korean, even thought i'm not quite a fan of the romance genre.

any recommendations?

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9:43 AM;

blocks have been terrible. chem and math were especially killers! not to say that gp and econs weren't. sigh. felt so utterly helpless during the tests knowing that there was insufficient time yet i could not speedily attempt anything precisely because i don't know how to.

ANYWAYS! yesterday was a splendid day nonetheless. mostly due to the team. =) we went for lunch at forture after math. the food there was good and the prices friendly. i managed to guess closest to the bill! or even exact because they deducted ten cents from it. then after lunch we went back to school to the salt centre toilet to sleep! it is a great place to sleep cos practically nobody comes in at all and we did have at least a good half hour of sleep before commencing gym. gym was usual, weights and abs, except (omg all our wishes, prayers and rain dances have worked!) we did not have to RUN because it was raining!!! or rather it rained previously and the ground was still wet and slippery and we might fall so therefore we cannot run. excellent.

we went for a TEAM OUTING after gym. one of the few we had if we even did, and the best thing is, we had FULL attendance, all ten of us. we went to queensway to get the team jersey. we selected this nice red fbt jersey. yay. (i still want my hot pink one though!) we're also considering a team bag (cool!). i could do with another bag, (although i have like, so many, but one can never have enough) especially a duffel.

the best part of the day was... going to ikea to eat! i love the cafe at ikea, though i don't go there often. the meatballs are great. everytime i go there i never fail to rave about them. plus just about everything like the chicken wings. i dunno why i like the place there so much, perhaps because it's such a fun place to go to. fun food, fun shopping. oh and some of us in a rather crazy fit, bought this clunky crocs lookalike footwear. HAHA. team slippers(?) haha i have no idea what to call it! they come in such bright funky colours. yeah man, we can always mix and match. wear to training man!

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8:31 AM;

Sunday, March 09, 2008

i'm staring at the paper, mind in a blank.
two and a half hours
of essentially doing nothing
since there'll be nothing much i can do.
i thumbed through the pages
glanced at the questions,
certain i can't do more than a quarter.
i picked up my pen, starting penning rubbish
in a bid to fill up the stark white foolscap.
the organic compounds loom large and unforgiving,
in desperation i try to recall reaction mechanisms,
functional groups, ethers, lactones, lactams,
and everything i tried cramming
in the past day and a half,
to no avail. so i sit there
taking my own sweet time to write to think,
writing and rewriting answers
which are wrong.
continuing in this manner
aimlessly, i contend the thought of just
going to sleep and spending two hours in a better way.
but i decide no, i will go on
and at least do those i can do.
but what good will it do? for
the pass grade seems distant,
all i can get is a U.

WHAT A SORRY ATTEMPT. AHAHAHA.

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10:14 AM;

had mr 500 on saturday. it was a loong day. we started out eager and fresh and all geared up to support and cheer our lungs out for all our team mates. by the time noon hit, we were all sluggish and tired, and the extremely hot day didnt help. (but we still cheered for the team of course!) i swear, one can experience the greenhouse effect inside the tent we pitched. there was no air circulation whatsoever inside. after a while we all gave up and got out of the tent, finding it more comfortable to sit outside in a shady area. some of us planned to mug and the enthusiastic start gave way to eventually giving up. haha.

our race was in the afternoon at 3.50. by that time i felt so tired (the temp and humidity were really getting to me) that i didnt feel like racing anymore... of cos when we were in the waters it was an entirely different story. the wind was blowing away ever so gaily which made the waters so choppy. (at times like this, i'm reminded of how much i love mac and its waters. luckily we were on a tiger.) then i guess some of the adrenaline came and we were all geared up and ready to do our very best, then... at the start, jiaen's paddle got stuck in some seaweed (haha) which resulted in the other boats having a headstart. but after that all was fine... or so we thought. (ok we didnt burst) shall have to watch the vid to find out.

after the races were over and we moved the boats to mac (sitting in the lorry was fun!), hx treated us to pizza hut! (some thanks to huiwen who sorta helped us to get the treat) we had a nice satisfying meal. we even played zhongjimima and some of them mixed up some rather gross stuff as forfeit. during the last few games we tried ways and means to ensure hx "zhong-ed" even trying to resort to 'cheating' but in the end there wasnt really a need for it cos he still guessed the number anyway. =P we had lotsa fun. (at the expense of some money from hx hehe) =)

my very eventful day isn't over yet. i still had huang cheng to go to. needless to say, i was very very late. reached there at around 9, and to my pleasant surprise, i arrived before the intermission which meant i still had a complete show to watch. went there in the shabbiest of clothes: orientation tee and fbts. omg i felt soo supremely underdressed, looking at the others all dressed so prettily in heels and dresses and at least in anything better than what i was wearing. luckily i was even allowed to enter the theatre. oh and i can't believe i went for huang cheng alone AGAIN. sigh but it was ok since i like watching concerts and performances and you don't really talk during these. the last play was pretty enjoyable. the storyline was interesting. too bad i missed the first two. but i certainly could not pass up a treat like that!

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9:24 AM;