shall try to type in malay since it'll be one of the last times i'll ever use it.

sudah ada keputusan o levels. ada 7a1s 2a2s dan 2b3. sangat sedih.

a2 untuk chem dan chinese

b3 untuk msp dan hc.

=(

chem saya tak tahu kenapa hanya a2. chem, sains yang saya terlalu baik leh. sian. so low only. damn sad la.... saya tak tahu, tetapi paper damn weird lah.

the worse is bahasa melayu la. kenapa b3??????????? worse that i have ever done la. saya selalu ada a1 atau a2 untuk msp. b3... sigh. damn lousy. i really think my malay is better than just a b3. i did work hard, i memorised some karangan, i memorised some oral topics, i memorised all e peribahasa (heh in eng tho) and in the end what i get is some crap grade. the paper is easy la. to anybody who has ever spoken any malay (fluently and nt with random eng words in sentences) will find it freaking easy. unfortunately i do not. i rmbed i cldnt do some of e mcqs! and its just mcqs lah! damn it. and i know i found e mcq compre hard. (isit ah, cant really rmb)

come to think of it, i REALLY shld have quit while i was ahead. why the hell did i take it for os. it really damaged my grades. sigh. a blemish.

cikgu akan kill me. =P

forget it la.

i dun regret taking malay. at least now i still know a tiny bit and can warble my way thru sentences. yay. but i guess in a while i'll forget it completely. =(

i'm damn sad abt my os. seriously i really could have done better. i know 7a1s isnt bad, 6 pts isnt bad, but it just feels so... wasted. i wanted 9a1s, but fell short of it. it's just tt i feel so... like..i dunno la.... not very happy. like a vague feeling of dissatisfaction. e feeling tt i cld have done better. but im glad i can stay in hci coz i hav grown to love e sch as well as 6b and i really hope to stay in e class for 2 yrs.

if u congratulate me, i'm sorry if i dao or look unhappy. coz i'm not happy with the grades, at all.

but it's fine la. i'm not happy nor sad over it. it's just ok, normal, average, ok.

dont mind me and certainly pls dun kill me.

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7:01 AM;

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oh man i realised my reputation is dying. if there ever existed one in the first place.

oh i got a new phone. damn nice. so cool somemore. finally got nice cool 3g phone yay!

i'm getting too bimbotic i realised. by sheer utter coincidence, my pencil case, wallet, bag AND handphone are all PINK. damnit.. what's wrong with me!?! i'm not even supposed to like pink! (but actually it's nt the colour that made me choose the thing... the pink stuff just looked the best among the other variations) sigh... sigh.... it just happened to be this way. hahaha. SIGH.

and im supposedly manly/tomboyish... hmm.. what's tt supposed to be man! im like girly and feminine k! even as i say this i dont believe myself. but i realised that u have to be loud no matter what. if not every1 dao u, even after i yell like a million times, STILL they dao. -.- and perhaps that's why they think im erm, manly.. like... rite.. nvm it's still better than being a guy and being known as a sissy or better still, her. =P

and im supposedly the sleeper. oh rite a sleeper is part of the railway track, no? haha nvm being lame here. yeaa but i really cant help it. im nocturnal, i slp late and the lectures are so boring that even if i try to stay awake (and believe me, i do try), slp still seems a more tempting option. as if anyone else ever pays attn. -.-

ahaha... as i said, my reputation is going down the drain. nvm. heck care. hahah =P

but nvm.. im no longer known as the blur one. *looks smug* i guess that's an improvement, no?

=P

nvm this is a random crap post.

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8:08 AM;

haha hvnt updated for a long. not like anyone ever visits my blog save for myself haha.

we had jts at sakae at cpf building. it was so fun and we made hell of a lot of noise in the restaurant. as it was a dinner buffet, all of us tried to stuff ourselves. our table was the first in the line (and hence we get the food first) and for a while the tables behind couldnt get anything cos we took food continuously. nt bad la... lots of sushi... and a bowl of udon noodles.. felt quite full after that. ahaha...

one table (5 pple) actually ate 88 plates O.o haha

after the food was when most of the fun began... im rather lazy to elaborate but we played zhong ji mi ma!/truth or dare/truth and dare... haha.

and some of us were gg crazy and started singing chi pop songs. ahaha. it's so cool la..in sc i was nv able to do that, solely because almost no one knew any chi songs at all... save for a few. but in hci it's a totally different story. which is good in a way. and not so in another. coz my chinese sucks... badly.

after tt we went to sg river... romantic ah...

not so when u're w almost 2 classes =P

anyways we bought some bacardi breezer and some 5% alcohol drink fr 711. i didnt dare to drink much coz apparently i was turning red. so shi bai la normally also not so bad... hahaha.

at sg river we played MORE zhong ji mi ma, this time up to 1 k. i kena ONCE which is rare. most of the time when i play with ppl i almost nv kena =P. then i chose truth. (i'd rather not run or prance arnd doing stupid stuff, and besides i have ntg to hide =P) shall nt reveal the qn here tho *winks*

left the place at abt 11 plus reached home arnd 12 plus. nt bad ah...


more updates:
my phone is screwed up. like seriously. i nv even knew there cld be such a problem.
my math is quite screwed. diagnostic test argh.

im really unfit and loser. always run slowest in canoe sigh. then canoeing also damn lousy. but i suppose i can always improve after training and all that. and perhaps become like the snrs, so dark and toned. quite cool. sigh which brings me back to this qn. shld i stay in canoe? i know if i dun join a sport cca, i prob wont do ANY exercise on my part and will only become increasingly unhealthier =P. but canoe is rather hiong, with 3 times a wk training at a minimum. hc canoe also lacks girls and i dun think they can afford having ppl quit, after which, i dun think they can form a full team haha. unless girls fr 2nd intake join.

if i dun join canoe i might take up guitar, since i have a guitar rotting and dying away at home, which i shld seriously make use of. guitar seems slacker. =P

and council.. sigh... this one is not up to me to decide whether i can get in. shld i even campaign? seems like council is even worse la.. everyday must stay back till so late, do like so much planning and organising, always chao bz, so crap la. but it definitely looks gd on a testimonial. (right now i think i dun even care for any kind of post. results dun even know whether can make it anot sigh.)

i think i'll just try to campaign la. the rest will be up to the population.

all this applies even if i am forced to change jc. although i think that is unlikely.

SIGH which brings me back to the results. im keeping my fingers crossed, or make that locked in that crossed position. these few days, dun expect me to have a clear mind or even have any will to do hw and tutorials. the impending release of o levels, the key to whether i can even remotely come within a 5 metre radius of hci... is seriously weighing on my mind. on everyone's minds, actually. i really hope i do. i hvnt as yet entertained the thought of leaving.. which wld mean i do really badly for my os. and i'll be very very sad...coz that wld mean disappointing myself and a lot of other ppl. and seriously im starting to like hci a lot. and my class utterly and completely rocks. seriously... i hope 07s6b can remain as a class... hope no one leaves... names can be added to the list, but not taken away.

and since it is so hard to enter hci, it must be hard to leave as well.

right now i dun even know how to describe what i'm feeling. too much tension i guess. mind's blanking out...

PLS PLS PLS

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7:56 AM;