DAMN IT I DONT THINK I CAN TAKE THE TENSION ANYMORE. NOW I HAVE NO IDEA AT ALL WHEN THE RESULTS ARE RELEASED (EITHER MON OR FRI). AND EITHER WAY I REALLY DONT WANT TO KNOW. YET THERE IS A PART OF ME THAT WANTS TO. DAMNIT IM IN THIS CONSTANT DILEMNA. EVERYDAY I TRY NOT TO THINK ABOUT IT. BUT THERE IS THIS CONSTANT BLACK CLOUD HANGING OVER, WHICH JUST SEEMS TO MAKE DAYS SLIGHTLY DULLER.
I REALLY REALLY FERVENTLY WANNA STAY IN HCI.
AND I REALLY HOPE I DO WELL. AT LEAST I HOPE I DIDNT SCREW UP TOO BADLY.
BUT OF COZ, SHLD MY RESULTS DICTATE THAT I MUST LEAVE (CHOY CHOY CHOY TOUCH WOOD), I WILL EXIT GRACEFULLY.
DAMN IT. TRYING TO THINK WITH AN OPEN MIND.
DAMN I MIGHT JUST BREAK DOWN SOON. CANNOT. MUST HOLD ON, COMPOSURE COMPOSURE COMPOSURE.
*KEEPS FINGERS CROSSED*
