i feel so frickin' dumb.
this is one of the first times i feel so utterly confused and reluctant.. reluctant to drop AND reluctant to continue h3. i REALLY DUNNO. at first i was so getting ready to enjoy my new-found freedom, then i got myself swayed too easily into attending the h3 lecture, after which i went to speak with my teacher about h3 and stuff. and apparently she decided to give me another chance!! which is great. but i cancelled the h3 subject registration earlier in the morning, so now i have to go find some teacher again and get them to 'reinstate' the subject.
coming back to the point, i am really still in a dilemma, although everyone encourages me to continue. and i guess i should, since i've already caused enough trouble by quitting and un-quitting h3 (haha) and they would probably kill me if i were to say i want to drop it and then decide not to drop it.. and the cycle continues. but... ARGH. i can't articulate my feelings into words. it's like, i'm in dilemma whether to continue, and when they didn't accept my appeal, i debated whether to appeal against my appeal (-.-), and when i finally decided to try and appeal, i was given another chance and now once again, i'm still HESITATING.
BUT CANNOT LAH. take means take. even if i flung my h3 at a levels i will still take.
i guess i have to work doubly hard now... i have to prove to myself and people around that I CAN DO IT. YES, sophia soh, you can do it.
ARGH.... I CAN'T STAND IT.... why can't i be more decisive? why do i still hold on to a subject that will probably bear not much importance in the future? why can't i just quit and walk away and save myself all that trouble?
nevertheless, COME ON, I CAN DO IT. JIAYOU TO ME. (and to everyone else as well)
